O.O this post damn long!

LALA!
woo!
we got this total lameshit game we are playing for the SEL thing.
angel &mortal.
haha im not going to say out my mortal wor forget bout getting to know who k!
heh.
but please do tell me if you are my angel. xD
okay that sounds hahaha man.
:DD

and junyi completely stole my name. -.-
we were supposed to intro ourselves. saying our CCA, how many siblings we have, and description of a mascot that represents us. yea &you guessed it junyi's mascot was genie!
zzz! ):
that was completely expected.
haha.
&yea i was totally an ant. and what's my reason? jiayi they all say so. :DD

zzz &im a zihigh girl and will always be a zihigh girl.
:DD
cuz if im not zihigh.
it's not good.
):
yea! so i must zihigh!

lalalala elmo's world!
and me and alvina created this song.
&the spider change to ma yi lo!
super )): !
haha but nonetheless fun!

we went lot1! but bday present for kamseng haha.
me jess wenyi qinyu
it was damn nice we crapped on the way there.
haha it was ages since i've last been like that lo. going out with friends.. talking and crapping on the mrt train.
super super sadded. )): !
saw siren gim! haha and we went searching for some bugs for you know who. tml's bday girl!
but for goodness sake there were like only one type of bugs. )): !
share cost with siren and emily! haha :DD thanks gim!
gim is a uber nice person to shop with we went arnd window shopping. &once more, it was ages since i last window shopped. SUPER SUPER SUPER SADDED! )): !
zzz i feel so guilty for leaving jess they all lo. =/
but then i had to go home le.
rawr.

ohya have i totally mentioned before bout calling the wrong jiayi?
i wanted to call 3i jiayi in the end call junior jiayi! that's so stupid i know. it's typical me ): !
&no wonder she sounded different. but yet still familiar.
&no wonder she din have a clue as to what i was saying bout the compos! zzz!
that's so dumb right.
dumbass! xD constance calls me dumbass everytime she sees me doing smth stupid she claims. but actually she calls me dumbass everytime she sees me! )): !

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boo everyone.
speaking of boo im reminded of how huili always tries to say boo to me.
usually i will kena shocked &scream or smth.
well, unfortunately for her case, i dont. i just stare at her as if she's an ET from outer space. :DD
I AM ET FROM OUTER SPACE.
BOM BOM BOM BOM
COME TO SINGAPORE TO SELL TOOTHPASTE
BOM BOM BOM BOM
WHEN I LOOK INTO YOUR GRANDMA'S FACE
BOM BOM BOM BOM
IT REMINDS ME OF THE MONKEY'S FACE
BOM BOM BOM BOM
HEY HEY MONKEY'S FACE
BOM BOM BOM BOM
ASK YOUR GRANDMA TO BUY MY TOOTHPASTE

woo~ that was so spas.
enough zi high ing for now.
reminds me of miss lim leh.
she's nice she likes to doodle. :DD
and she always zi high. i agree with the sec2 class. =X
haha :DD

super high super high.
although everything can change like right now.
i dont know. mood swings la. im an emo girl please.

i love zhiyi and liang. we hold hands and walk tgt and we hug each other and all that.
okay fine we are NOT les. i repeat ya. we are NOT les.
:DD
and i love my class too! we link arms and walk tgt to the canteen and start to be high.
everyone stares at us with our laughter and stuff. we are a lively class. :DD

band rocks.
if things start to work well again. =X

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8:59 PM;

happy happy me. :DD

drama class. acting.
do you get the hint?

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woo ohmygawd i got a new comp! :DD
hyper man. hahaha.
yeahs im gna take good care of the new comp i swear.
haha my old comp is gna continue to suffer under the hands of my bro. )):
:DD
hope this comp doesn't lag or anything in the future or ya la.. work like an old ahpek.
:DD i swear i will take good care of it.

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im off to have my daily medicine.
listening to songs do help me feel better.

this day hasn't been great.
&sorry guys but it's true the curtains are giving me a headache.
oh wells nvrm lets wait till after cny then we see how bah.

well headache's not only caused by curtains i guess.

i know too much things.
i rather lose my five senses.

i rather not have the ability
to see
to hear
to taste
to feel
to smell

i rather just know nthg.

where is my highness again eh.
hell.

JUST TELL ME JENNIE. WHATTHEHELL IS WRONG WITH YOU.
WHATTHEHELL IS WRONG WITH THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU.
JUST WHATTHEHELL.

yeahs im miserable im upset im depressed.
whatever.
just decided that as long as i have no suicidal thoughts,
IT'S FINE THAT IM DEPRESSED.

i hate her.
i hate you.
i hate everybody.

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8:24 PM;

realised i have been crying alot lately.
i wont deny.
and i wont hide.
it's tiring.

A SHOUTOUT TO PEOPLE.
MY TAGBOARD MISSES YOU ALL.

lol reminds me of the song
where'd you go

3i! bring 70cents!
though i dont think you guys will come my blog la hor.

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Dedicated to you.

Are you aware of what you make me feel,
Baby.
Right now I feel invisible to you,
Like I'm not real.

Why should I care?
Cuz you weren't there,
When I was scared,
I WAS SO ALONE.
You, you need to LISTEN.
I'm starting to TRIP,
I'm LOSING MY GRIP.
&I'M IN THIS THING ALONE.

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yay i finished my bio. zzz.

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ahaha today rock like totally.
i had so much fun today i swear.

who am i trying to kid.
whatever.
and gor, im erasing the big big smile i gave you ytd.

sorry.

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&everyone knows how much i hate pressure.

gloomy today. and the rain din make me feel any better.
well the run was okay tho.

there's only one person who knows me damn well.
&that person's ME.
i want a shadow.

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8:03 PM;

i wna slap myself.
anw someone please remind me to be a hardworking girl k.
go home, bathe, and then nap 1hour or two.
unless band or smth. totally cant nap then.
wake up straight away take homework do la still on what comp. but today ahahah i was tempted to stay in front of the teevee.
:DD
lol.

anw now i have some stupid physics thingy to do. lol. although it's not really homework.
well nvrm. will take it as a revision. for sec1 physics.
remind me of mr suria. :DD i miss him. ):

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WHATTHEHELL.
she cant even compliment properly.
&when the time comes to blame me, she grabs every chance she can to make my life miserable. i feel so wronged!

my lil bro's changed. alot. he's a p schl kid now and yknw.. p1. he doesn't really know how things work and all that. besides.. he's a spoiled kid. not that independent yknw.
but now im trying to talk some sense into him and he freaking doesn't wna listen. he keeps fooling arnd. i dont know why he's like that. &it's like there is so much distance between him and me now that, i believe he hates me now. &he isn't that cute lil kid bro who used to be so.. cute. i feel so hurt. why does everyone have to change ehh?
think he might be also like this cuz of my influence. i mean.. whatthehell eh? he has a rebellious teen sis who gives him a bad example. why wouldn't he be a lil tiny puny reflection of myself? the prob is..
.. he's worse than me.
i wna teach him. i wna correct all the mistakes i've done in the past. neglecting him, not caring for him, and most importantly, giving him the impression that i detest him.

it's kinda true in a way tho. :/
i was jealous. another sign that reveals my immaturity.

i just hope.. it's not too late.but it is. he just wont listen to me.
))))))))))))))))))))):

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&then suddenly i saw that immaturity in me.

varies as time passes by.

i miss schl im starting to hate weekends.
detest them.

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______ up.

it's so tiring so unfair. vent also no use.
i can SWEAR there is NOONE who is related to someone like HER.

i've really had it at times. so pek chek yknw.
really.

1. INSANE.
2. DRIVES MY FAMILY INSANE.
3. UNDER THE SAME ROOF.

rawr &i can SWEAR that tml is gna be DISASTROUS.
if she treats her son like some 1yr old kid who still doesn't know how to take care of his stuff, imagine what is gna happen to ME. a 14yr old kid VS a 40++ ADULT k!
like what? hey im 14yr old leh. i have some right of my own can? &what's more, i have gone to so many so many so many schl activities or stuff like that before. &have i been kidnapped or anything even once? oh my
LEMME SPELL THIS OUT FOR YOU.
N
O
NO!
FINE SHE'S CONCERNED BOUT MY SAFETY.

wait wait wait the safety part is just.. whatever.

why am i even mentioning tml?

what im gna talk bout is TODAY. TODAY TODAY TODAY!
what's her prob eh?
biased eh?
wna play OH IM YOUR ___________ SO YOU BETTER OBEY MY UNFAIR INSTRUCTIONS?
oh my that is SO NOT JUSTIFIED.
what's her prob. what's her prob with watching teevee?
like DUH HE HAS THE _______ TEEVEE ALL TO HIMSELF FOR THE WHOLE DAY.
&i just watched for a pathetic few minutes and he whacked me.
IS THERE ANYONE WHO CAN EXPLAIN THAT?!

&then she comes along and scolds ME who hasn't done anything but gaped at her bro.
OH MY. HOW FAIR IS THAT.
even my parents have smth against her.
even her HUSBAND has smth against her.
EVEN me!

i know this is wrong.
so freaking wrong.
but sometimes i wish both of them can just disappear or smth.
that's to make it sound nicer.
in other words, and to put it bluntly,
i wish she can just die.
whatever.

on a lighter note, i think i've caught the
F
L
U
virus.
irritating but nonetheless, i rather get flu for my entire life.
than have
her
as someone actually
related to me.

&YES IM CONVINCED SO STOP IT. THERE IS NO WAY IM ENTERING. NO CHANCE NO WAY NO HOW &HOWEVER HARD YOU TRY, I STILL WONT BELIEVE IM GOING TO ENTER.
&THAT'S JUST A MOLEHILL COMPARED TO THAT STUPID MOUNTAIN PROBLEM K.

i had enough. really. i feel so freaked.
so unfair.

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8:09 PM;

headaches. you just cant get enough of them can you.

it felt freakingly empty.
running like that. whenever i run it felt like nthg on my mind yknw. well, today, it felt like everything's coming back. like the whole world collapsing yet the puzzle pieces are closer &closer to where they belong in the puzzle. kinda contradicting but i dont know. that's how it felt like.

&thanks also to the air conditioner.
had an effect on me somehow. made me feel even emptier than ever before.

i wna listen to songs. haha.
old habit yeahs.

i felt a pang in my heart. still acted like my siao self. until i realised how hurted i felt.
it was meant to be like that. no matter where i was.

&i really do hate the rain. brings my focus off stuff. was blurrr. wanted to call home become go press the stupid bus bell. driver scolded me. whatever.

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7:02 PM;

changed blogskin. he ling make one leh. :DD
thnks ar! :DD
haha very nice.
lol.
but i cant resist saying smth more.
i hate my eyes it freaking hurts now.

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HELL. woke up felt so frigging headache &stuff. &the bus ride din make me feel any better. messaged he ling cuz i was so damn bored and deleted messages. saw some of her funny messages and commented bout them lo.
was just the usual sian diao stuff. assembly they actually announced the result of the malan runway thing. zzz. 3i won second. yeahs i was happy. but i felt stupid at the same time can. happy for class. stupid cuz i was the model and i din know why the hell they chose us cuz i swear i was the most pathetic model la.
merwyn should win. lol.
but cool anyways we got oreos. :DD
classes were ASK ASK ASK. hell. i could probably say out everything in ten seconds. the components of ASK or smth. zzz. so frigging boring. was it math lesson we had first? whatever cuz we simply had some crapping time. 1hour actually. intro time and such. i was the only one who said i din like maths. was going to continue by saying i love maths. but forget it. i wna be the unique one. not to mention the cheeky one. LOL. :DD anyways, he said he still like me. so hahaha. whatever. CONCERT BAND RAWKS K.
lol. i think im gna have such a nice time lo. groups of four it was duh erjie me constance jiayi. so these four siao chabors were there laughing thru most of the discussion time la. &i dont know how come haiwei and jiayi kept laughing at each other. haha found it funny and laughed as well.
humans.. was almost dropping dead. again. population growth and blahs. was about population growth and all that. i do hope she would make a more interesting cher if she really does teach me hist.
random order but nvrm i dont know which comes first anyway. what lessons first and blahs. whatever.
break was sad.
but it was me who wanted to be antie social wasn't it.
i feel like a complete freak.
lecture was even nicer.

i was guai and went home early today. as in straight after i was released from schl leh. i shouldn't have done so. should have escaped hell.
freak. stuff that are so frustrating and all. shouting and stuff la.
WHY? why me? ...
i feel tired. keeping up with this life. this hell.

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7:03 PM;

haha. okay fine i swear i will TRY to make my posts short and sweet. i know im killing alot of people with my LONG LONG posts. :DD
morning wake up damn sian go je do proj. science proj. bomb proj. stooopid proj. the train, according to its usual speed, would reach je in about 40++ minutes. and WAIT A MINUTE. i did reach je in about 40++ minutes! that means... okay fine i boarded the damn early train. which means i was damn early. which means it's my fault not the train's. OKAY FINE! zzz.
yeaps i reached there damn early. lol. and jiayi was gna be late. &constance... hmms. originally, she was gna reach quite early. well, due to two freaks, namely jennie and jiayi, the two Js, who kept calling poor constance to hurry up when she was in the mid of changing, she was late.
the two Js managed to grab two beanbags. hahaha. and poor constance was begging to have one more. too bad there aint anymore. ): lol...
at the beginning, we kept fooling around. jiayi wanted comics, i wanted snacks, and constance wanted peace and quiet. no laughing from the laughing queens/princesses. no drama from the drama queens/princesses. -vomit blood- princesses sound abit... wrong.
no change for snacks. was sad and pek chek cuz the machine accepted notes but unfortunately the notes cant go in. so too bad lo. had to go jec go get some coins. went with constance. who was du diao ed at my constant laughing. the shopkeepers were meanies k! they refused to provide a pathetic girl with coins. &they aint even got anything to lose. in the end, they get the notes, i get the coins! nothing to lose what.
some wanted to help. too bad cash register only open when you wna buy smth. ):
in the end, YAY. i got coins. (:
YAY. i got snacks.
YAY we finally started on our proj.
turned out that it din take much effort after all. read the thing, modify the real letter and tadaa~
wahaha letter was done and we had fun trying to wreak havoc. lol... started to send dumb stooopid sms-es to each other. jiayi had loads of great ones.
here's one.

Your brain will be upgraded. Please press to continue...

Upgrade Now

L
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D
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Upgrade failed.
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lol.. nice right. there's one joke damn dirty. lol..
there's this guy who came and told us to put our phones on silent mode. well mine's alr on silent mode. it was the other two siao chabors' phone which were noisy. xD
anyway we went off to eat. haha.
photohunt. &the stooopid word search game that 2FUNKISTS got second position in the list of high scores! hahaha. ohmygawd man. we were...
lousy.
):

lol... and then we went rushing for home. LOL. well me and constance actually. jiayi... i dont know bout her. haha.

hello, my name is plague.
hey i love those books can. :DD

lol im gna read &read liao leh! bookworm. tho im sure that after awhile i would not be one again. always like that one. when i get busy and stop reading books, i aint a bookworm anymore. loves to read tho. :DD
lol.

EH HEY I THOUGHT MY POST WAS SUPPOSED TO BE SHORT AND SWEET?
lol.. ah wells BYE PEOPLE!
:DD

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6:07 PM;

ytd was :)
had some laughs in the morn. went to assembly area found out mr teo was there thanks to constance &ran back to clsroom to take report bk. take liao ran back. looked like a complete idiot but oh wells whatever.
couldn't see a thing. the person speaking blahs. you couldn't tell who they were unless you recognised their voices. i bu xi guan stand at the back i guess. :D
to make things worse there were BUGS. flying arnd. zzz?
went to band with constance. she kept doing the clicking sound which was so damn loud IN MY EAR. &i swear, i was annoyed. yeahs. she succeeded in making me annoyed. LOL. no normal person could do the clicking thing so loudly fyi.
band room wasn't open yet so we had to stand outside. a few clicking sounds from constance from my left, a yikai on my right who ALWAYS manages to make me annoyed, and a clairelu! in front of me. well this was what happened.
i told constance i hate her. constance said she knew i was not speaking the truth and in my heart i still loved her. and i gave her the du diao look. apparently clairelu was also a siao chabor like constance, and well... like she said... GREAT minds think alike. &so, she said something like that to me as well when i said i hated her. zzz.
laughs laughs laughs. :)
band was wheee. cuz i din feel my playing was that lousy anymore :) and there were the many many jokes going arnd.
there was a band version of ASK! ohmygawd! O.O
very inspirational. :)
breaktime was okay i guess.
and sectionals... couldn't find the rest of the clarinets after i came back with an extra stand. zzz. turned out they went up to the clsrooms. zzz.
cheeredup abit after that. and ms chan said that the two science books i bought were heavier than me. >.<
yeahs they were indeed very heavy.
if you were to ask me which one i would prefer, i would choose none. NEUTRAL. :) i thought both were okay just that safari we couldn't play alot. towards the end it would be resting for a thousand bars. while sunrise wasn't like that. well i dont know. no preference. :) and yeahs it was true that sunrise was kinda easier. lol. hahah but then again, safari sounds quite nice leh. :D
stabat was wheee i was improving :) i feel my confidence level rising i guess.
for the music notes, i completely stunned cuz my music note was UGLY. :(
i dont wna talk bout the rest of the day.
yeahs &tml will be sci proj day! hope we can finish the letter then tues we'll be very prepared if monday after schl would be another meeting. lol.
my life is still very under control. :D very good very good.
3i! :)

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im gna update tmr. too tired le. ):
tata !

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9:21 PM;

READ MY LAST POST PLEASE. (: BUT IT'S DAMN LONG. ): lol.
OH OH OH AND...
my spas passport sized photo! improved abit cuz sec1 de was completely dotdotdot.

OH OH OH AND...
JENNIE and WENHUI de sms. lol.
WENHUI: Eh tml report to bandroom straight wear rv uni. Help me tell e sec3s can ?
JENNIE: Orh okay. Huh sec3s?!
WENHUI: Ya la. Ur batch wad
JENNIE: Oh... Eh ya hor! Zzz.

... yes im blurrr. &seriously i still cant believe im a sec3 liao. LOL!

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lol. im zi high ing in my last post la. lol. &it's damn long.

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lalalala lalalala elmo's world lalalala lalalala elmo's world!
i miss all the sci lab lessons with mj. seriously they were like ohmygawding fun. haha.
i miss all the goofy stuff.

im sian k.
got loads of pics yknw. all the cute little stuff. haha. lil tortoise! <33 so damn cute la zhiyi &i were crazy over them the other time. hahaha.
:/ i really dont know bout that PARTICULAR one leh. abit... hmms... not that sui bian. the others confirm like theirs what. most of them. but this one... i dont even have a CLUE. how arh. zzz.

MAN. anyone can freaking tell me what i can write to PROMOTE myself? zhiyi knows bout the lian pi hou version. but then... HEY IM NOT LIAN PI HOU! i mean... i am. but then hor... i cant do it in frnt of people i dont really know yet you know. zzz STOOOPID 30SEC SPEECH!

oh ya. i see NO POINT in this stooopid homework of ours. since most peeps are gna impromptu, it's just like every year when our NEW chers come ask us to stand up one by one to intro ourselves. EXACTLY THE SAME. k.
whatthe!
&yeahs, im still wondering if i should change the stooopid topic. OR use that lian pi hou thing. which is... not really ME la hor. like... this is a new class leh.

zzz la.

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wahaha im back back back! :DD
went to batam for 3d2n. &it was quite fun as well.
haha. long post ehh. seriously. even longer than my already usual long posts. beware! :D
went harbourfrnt marh. took cab there leh still got watch pokemon on the cab. -.-
go there is morn marh. so go eat eat. hahaha. &then wait for the ferry to arrive for 45min. while playing flying finger. hahaha.
seasick. zzz. dont know why my lil bro dont have one. rawr. but this time i not so bad la. nvr headache until bui tahan. lol.
so after that reach there liao marh. then take the tour bus. hahaha. i tell you arh.
THE TOUR GUIDE IS DAMN CHIO AND NICE LA!
hahaha i was amused by her sense of humour la. loads of jokes. loads of smiles. &her chinese was like O.O as well! hahaha :D
went here went there.
shopping wasn't shopping at all cuz they were there. -.- not even window shopping. zzz was just sit down, and then go supermarket buy some stuff, rush back, and done. go back to the bus.
they went for spa and we went for shopping. zzzzzzzzzz
went to hotel. tell you it was SHUANG arh!
hahaha the room was so goddamned BIG la. looked so comfortable as well. they were lucky i din open the door, stare at the room for a minute or two, jumped onto the bed without even taking off my shoes, and keep jumping until the bed din look that comfortable anymore.
:D
lol. yeaps me &lil bro was like WAH!
hahaha
went to eat seafood while the rest of the tour group went night tour. couldn't even enjoy my freaking meal. yack yack yack away. freaking unreasonable. am i jealous? :/
so went back. go sleep le. then nxt day~!
:D their breakfast's nice k!
so after that me bro mum &dad went shopping~! lalala.
haha shop like hell arh! finally can shop marh. lol. i buy &buy &buy like siao. but maybe not enough presents for everybody leh. :/
ohmygawding nice la.
come back my bro got new games to play with his/our gameboy liao. lol. oh ya. the pokemon hor. is cheat our money one lo. they talk in ITALIAN. lol. hey i understand english perfectly well. ENGLISH i repeat. NOT ITALIAN. k. zzz.
went back again. hahaha eat lunch. then after that go shopping again. this time is excluding bro.
&she actually said im so irritating. go tag along for what? zzz la! then you want what? sit down on the bed and stare into thin air like a stooopid zombie meh. my lil bro still got gameboy to entertain him la. i dont have k. &also not like you la. im a TEEN for goodness sake. TEENS have super loads of energy and are HYPER. they dont go sitting somewhere for HOURS without fidgeting k. HELL.
like WADDE. whatever.
looked here and there. not that many things to see la. cuz i kinda bought loads of stuff le. &the shopping center aint very... hmm... SHOPPABLE. lol. cuz loads of shops nvr open. even if the place is BIG, the shops are big as well. &there aint so many shops after all. zzz.
yeahs went back home. i mean hotel. yeahs. sleep la. then what. watch abit teevee before that and before THAT, played flying finger.
:D
third day which is today la. siao man. woke up felt like hell. headache &all. zzz la. then go eat. again at that nice restaurant which provides nice breakfast. :DD
THEIR HASHBROWNS ARE NICE! AND THEIR PANCAKES TOO. :DD
lalala. then just prepared to check out and everything. played and played and played. hahaha. then bus. then ferry. mum managed to get the earlier ferry leh. hahaha she pro. :DD
then then then hor. took cab. another nice movie. madagascar! HAHAHA.
reached home goddamned tired. headache &stomachache leh. bui tahan.
now blog lo. :DD
cut down on alot of nice details. ):
nvrm. haha.

i hope my EYE get well soon. ):
HAPPY HAPPY 2OO7! :DD

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