woooooooooooo
flying tmr,
woooooooooooo
but im scared.
woooooooooooo
o.o

LOL.
i hope it would be a great experience,
no hiccups,
&i dont think there will be (:
not this time.

excited,
a few of my best buds around,
im rly excited : D

LOL.
okay i shall go continue pack le.

glad everything's okay,
with everyone.

me shall go dancing like a rabbit :D

EVERYONE REMEMBER MY BDAY OKAYYYYYYY!
ONE MONTH BEFORE CHRISTMAS! *winks*
hahaha xD

im so nervous im shaking ><

me likes songs, me wants pressies,
give me pressie, me likes you :DDD!

btw, omg alot of tags i din reply.
so sorry! TT
i will find time to reply ALLLLLLLLLLLL when i come back (:

ahwells! byebye everyone :D

swing swing ;
9:25 PM;

im back to normal &im glad (:

all i want,
is to see an interval in the red,
and an enjoyment in the green.

too fast paced,
too complicated,
&why talk about running when you cant exactly catch up with modern life?

sure i like to run,
alot,

but when the finishing line is so far away,
we lose motivation D:
that's sad..

me,
im a scary person.
i scare myself alot.
xD
i scare people too.

so i shall stop blogging.
HAHAHA.

eh but no serious.
i shall really blog now.
err..

today went band,
there are three new darlings :D
me and zhiyi each took one.
hahah, but need to break in leh.
it's very bu xi guan ><
not to mention my braces hurt a hell lot D:

hmm,
big heart shaped earrings,
&a bangle.
maybe sunglasses is not such a good idea after all ><
i cant see without my specs anw xD

had a great time : D
woooooooo.

hopes for a great gpp,
a great bday,
and a great christmas :D

hohoho.

swing swing ;
8:58 PM;

i dont see reason,
not when she doesn't.

my house aint the effing ideal place for a world war 3,
neither am i the most tolerant mutant in the world, sole purpose to take in her nonsense with grace.

wtf.
a graceful person i am not.

i am NOT willing to join the effing ranks of a bunch of adult idiots who are in constant denial. i am NOT gna join them in their chamberlain cause of promoting appeasement,
chamberlain failed anyway. hitler's an insane idiot after all.

this,
this apartment here,
is NOT,
i repeat,
NOT the effing woodbridge.
we dont entertain the sick, the insane, the mad.
nope we dont.

if repeating little things tgt with inappropriate vulgarities is your thing,
and yes, this house shall be clear of all types of effing cussing.
irony, this blog post shall be the only exception,
well, you can jolly well join the effing santa claus in the poles and freeze to death,
we wont mind sending over your pills so they can be an alternate path to death.
comeon, overdose yourself with those drugs.

bitching about the excessive scowls on my face,
the frowns,
the poor poor white hair that's starting to appear in my alr destroyed hair?

hey comeon, dont push the blame,
credits all go to you. *tight smile*
congrats though,
err.. i would rather not shake your hand. thank you.

for once i consider one of my sympathetic friends' advice.
go mad yourself.
you have nthg to lose.

go mad?
sure, im close.

make the rest of them have to suffer double the insanity under the same effing roof?
not so much.

nopes, i shall be sensible,
a good little girl,
and PRESERVE that little sanity.
who likes a mad girl anw?
i would chase all my eye candy off, and that's bad D:

i want to effing attend schl,
it helps me avoid the inevitable.
if only we could delay the effing world war.
wow, i wna be hitler so i could become suicidal and change the world.
or perhaps we should be the characters of cold war eh?

throw a few atomic bombs,
destroy the whole universe.
hope for the next big bang,
pray for god to create more living beings,
and have this world start anew.

a toast to all things sadistic, masochistic.
i need a break.
nono, not kitkats, i cant have chocolate when im so effing pissed like this.

bite your tongue till it bleeds,
bang your head till it drops off,
go to hell we gladly would,

or there was always grabbing a knife and sawing off her whole body into tiny little pieces as an option.

why hurt yourself?
this is called getting rid of the pest.

swing swing ;
1:36 PM;

here we go again;

another minute spent,
another day gone,
an entire week spent outside,
im content.

friday was last day of schl,
was 4i's official last day tgt.
thank god for strong souls because we din end up weeping our hearts out.
instead, we shall wait till our chalet, where we will and definitely say our goodbyes and blessings for each other.

4i, it's been a great two years,
and i must say i really love this class alot.
truly.

went sentosa and it was a splendid outing.
although i couldn't really enjoy it due to some external factors,
and had to spoil some people's fun by having to leave soon,
i was really happy to have spent time tgt with this bunch of keesiao people.

i thank gohjiayi too, she left tgt with me and listened to me vent with no complaint.

photos i'll consider to post them, havent gotten those taken with beishan and jiayi,
haiwei has loads though :D

monday was the first day of my escape plan.
went out with songhua,
turned out that madagascar we couldn't watch,
so we had to settle for walking around.
suntec was big, but kinda boring.
it din help that im an "indecisive" little girl, quoted. :/
subway and jigsaw were the highlights of the day as i watched gor eat (HAH) and tried to remember how much i would like to enjoy one of my old hobbies.
i think i lost that subway sweet btw. o.o
&i will give up all volvos and porsches okay. haha smaller cars are still the best :D

tues was band,
was rather restless,
me and zhiyi met in the morn.
i went all the way to je stn :D
so we met and i told her about the guy/girl three step test, and the shuai guy i saw on the train xD

we ate longjohn breakfast and it was damn good, costed 3bucks only too! i recommend. xD

then we went lib awhile and i went mad, borrowed about 8books (which im sure wasn't really nice to read. but i couldn't find any rly rly rly nice books D:)

went to band tgt and saw the 4page score and went woah.
it was nice, it was.. full of clustered black dots when seen from afar,
it was..
terrible. xD
it was only chromatics though, so.. should be can bah. gambatteeee :D

i apologise to liangshixian,
i thank zhiyi,
i've missed my bro, chuashixian,
&i've missed farah who has always been beside me and helping me, her smiles are contagious :D
the bass clarinet was addictive btw xD
i've decided. i officially love clarinets, dont care they bflat, eflat, bass, alto, whatever. i everything also like :D

wed was pschl outing day.
terrible day, summed up by three words : spoiled by rain.
i had a misunderstanding and thought we were going to eastcoastpark, while the rest thought we were going pasirris.

spent most of our time being restless souls :D
ohwells, the trip went like this.

i met shaunlum at bukit panjang plaza in the morn,
grabbed some late breakfast/early lunch/brunch? xD
ate longjohn again xD i think im addicted.
went to cck stn next to meet up with the rest, turned out only michelle was there,
we waited for kelly, and then off we go again.
got off at queenstown mrt cus xiuhan was there and we din call her in time. she was right outside. ._.
waited 6minutes, and then the long long long journey to bedok.
was "emoing" with my music. (emo wor. quoted. xD)
and finally we went to look for food and bus to take to ecp.
bert finally joined us le and the seven of us took a bus to some bus stop where we were supposed to walk about 10minutes to ecp.
hooray. it started raining.
we lagged at the bus stop. really, lagged. -.-
then we took a bus again xD some random bus that stops its service at toa payoh. so we took the damn bus and played 4i's mushroom deck (yes, it's with me.)
well, couldn't bear to play with my tsubasa cards okay.
haha toa payoh, we ate dinner. and talked. (actually, it was "brainstorming" for ideas for where to go next.)
took quite long, and we finally decided to go xiuhan's house :D
i separated with them, took mrt to newton to my mommy's office. lagged there awhile, decided that i CAN actually join them, and took a bus to bukit panjang xD
played scrabble for awhile, watched teevee.
and finally xiuhan's mom drove me to cck and i took a cab home. (she's so nice! &so easy to talk to. :D)
13bucks sia. totally waste money. TT
&we've decided to name this trip our great singapore tour.

thurs, which is today.
woke up early as usual and went to schl. reached at 745 when the briefing starts at 9.
started to read my book ._.
consie came at 830 and we went in.
saw mr lim and mr chia, made a u-turn. xD okay la, kidding.
talked to consie about trust, and she asked, "if you trust him so much, why did you turn at the sight of him?"
i said smth like, "well, that's called fear, not trust."
"fair enough."
we're doing on shanghai's present architecture. i wonder what my mom can tell me about that :D
the drug, the horror ._.
6pills? yeah sure, go take it till you die of overdose or smth. or maybe get addicted and die from withdrawal symptoms when we confiscate your precious pills, or suffer from aftereffects of the pills, or.. hmm.
i dno. just die.
but i bet you have the presence of mind to preserve your insanity filled life.
dont wry tho, i still love you, and i kinda believe in ethics yknw,
so, i wont go to your room at midnight and stab you to death.

im shocked, my dearest.
whatever has happened to the sweet chio darling that i'd once known?
ohwell at least you finally did smth right.

so we point to the falling star on the right.
hope for the best because it's a wonderful night.

swing swing ;
6:51 PM;

listen to the story of a fallen star,
everyone around gather, near and far;
let us stare at the broken,
the shapeless,
the cracked,
and retell the stories,
all over again.

**

combi chosen.
i guess bio shall set my path.

&all that stands in my way,
i will fight and push it away!

make this the first inspiration,
of many to come,
make this the ultimate judge,
of my outcome :D

gambatteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

swing swing ;
9:06 PM;

i wait patiently for tmr, or a few days from now, or smth.
then i will get pics of today's 4i outing from mainly beishan and haiwei.
xinhui has perhaps one or two, i dno who has what. i will just ask like mad :D

it was fun, :D
but unfortunately me and jiayi have to leave (early) and dampen the spirit :/
lols. ahwell.

zzz,
cant find my class list.
zzz.

swing swing ;
10:28 PM;