~~~~~
that's 5squigglies for you.

yeahs im not gna blog anymore. until the end of exams.
otherwise i will keep blogging and waste precious time to mug/cup/fork/whatever.
T.T

yeaps goodbye blog.
i'll see you next week.

sobs.

swing swing ;
8:37 PM;

swing swing ;
3:08 PM;

trust.
i've lost it.

&

purpose defeated.

break down but yet this feeling aint sadness aint desperation.
it's RAGE.

distorted the meaning i put in my brain for so long,
everytime.
i had to walk off halfway and lose my way in this journey to my aim.
it aint easy but i CAN do it i KNOW i can i BELIEVED i can and i REALLY can.
whythehell do i have to get distracted and feel so despo now.
whythehell do i have to lose that little trust.
whythehell do i have to be stupid and go do things that lead to unpleasant situations?

WHYTHEHELL AM I SO DUMB.

dammit it's 417 now?
oh dammit man.

I WANT THAT TRUST BACK.
AND I WANT TO PUT MYSELF BACK ON THE PROPER ROAD.

swing swing ;
4:11 PM;

swing swing ;
12:08 PM;

oh tell me how you shyt in schl without tissue -.-
actually, how you urinate without tissue as well.

ahahs. wow man. win liao lo.
and then i heard that they still can say, "NOW YOU KNOW HOW VALUABLE TOILET PAPER IS."
oh wow man ownage.
it's not as if the whole schl did it right. siao.

**

ohyeahs man i added erm.. two more playlists to my blog yeahs.
haha feel free to play them woohoo:DD
you will sure find them nice one.
you know why?
cuz i choose one.
hehhh.

yeaps anw today.. went okay ba..
haha was kinda tired for one period of time and completely zzz away.
rawr. cant blame me la i dont know why i these few days damn tired.

cid was another sucky part of thurs. i dont know when i think is next week. we actually gta prac catwalk in the hall. i can die.
rawr!

feel like some lagger lagging behind sometimes.
not lagging ba.. but then..
EH. im still quite slack leh.
and you countdown to exams.
how many more days?
wah. kena stunned.
like what jess said ytd,
it's like.. you suddenly feel so stressed out. but cant find the motivation to study..
ohwells. but i will try ba. i dont know. somehow force myself lo. not to say i completely expect myself to be a guaikia all of a sudden and mug like siao. but slowly ba. prob is i dont have much time left D:
it's just like those days..

yeahs tata i gta stop blogging if i wna mug.
gna learn from haiwei. stop blogging. :DD
but i still feel short in that pic -.-

swing swing ;
7:21 PM;

"dont leave me hanging.
held up so high on such a breakable thread."

yeahs so many stuff going on right now.
minor stuff : im concerned. but then.. not my business ba..
major stuff : studies, exhaustion &goodbyes.
stuff not mentioned : stuff not mentioned are not supposed to be mentioned -.-

packed.

well, tata ba. next time then post pics. blogger siao again rawr.

swing swing ;
9:10 PM;

IM IN LOVE WITH PIZZA (:
oohyeahs baby. im gna marry mrpizza when i grow up.
-.-

no serious. most sec3 klarinutters know how much i eat when i eat pizza. it's stunning. like a wow. i just keep eating and everything. at a super fast speed somemore. that's why stunning you mei you? i always eat like terribly slow and little. if you know me. -.-

pizza pizza! <33 pizza hut ahahs.

**

BABY I SWEAR IT'S DEJA VU.
ohman im in love with
deja vu by beyonce
it super rocks can.
haha that's the result from constantly listening to 987fm in the morn.
i fall in love with a new song everyday. (:

hmm. today went well. yeahs.
except for the part when it's frigging cold in the clsroom and i dont have my jacket (blubber. according to huili and choonhoe.) and i wna place my belt arnd my neck.
and that's when she came to tell me bout ss question. -.-
hah i had to make her wait for me for awhile since i had to remove my belt from my neck:DD
rofl.

my temperature? i dont know leh. but it's certainly below 0degreecelsius le. ohman my lamelame jokes (:
and my level? ahahs. i dont know. the unofficial one is B500 or smth le. and the official one ar? B20++ ?

awwman i hope i tyco get some questions correct :D

and awwman i miss those times and i know i have to face it someday and i know that when that day comes, i'll face it with a smile on my face and not tears from saying goodbye.

and awwman. i just have so many awwmans right!
anw, 3i peepo come ask me for ss question. it's graded. if you dont know the question yet that is. yeahs have to hand in by tmr also hor!

gone to do ss le. later still got pizza to eat woohoo!
byebye (:

swing swing ;
7:36 PM;

went to schl with a kiamcai piece of bio notes T.T
ahahs. too bad la. sorry dear bio notes. im really sorry.

i was kinda stunned noone noticed i did smth to my hair. but ohwells. fringe part damn obvious can? to me.
eh heh. sat with toiletmate kexin xiao xin xin (little star not little gorrila hor.) and it was nice ahahs. i have more things to stare at other than the cher and the whiteboard and the cher's table. -.-

if haiwei finds any of my notes or stuff under her table, T.T please dont blame me im that disorganised ahahs. but dont think so ba..

i was freaking out over ss whether to tell her there's hmwk or not. in the end she din even ask about it. ohwells xD
but there will be a seq we have to do. counted in exams ohman. question will be given to me tmr.

yeaps everything went fine..

but i skipped music.
reaction : T.T i wna play my saron and practise my saron. i like music lesson can. D:
but i skipped chinese.
reaction : WHEEE! :DD i hate chinese. ahahs. okay sorry. but yeahs i dont really like chinese lessons la.. prefer lijie so much more cuz we read ke wens all day long and she talks bout interesting stuff other than teaching us boring stuff. hehhh.

ohwells tmr's another da zuo wen. NOT looking forward to it. shall prepare today ba since im still in the mugging mood -.-
okay maybe not.
but yeaps shall prepare today. then go there copy can liao woohoo.

history EU thing quite nice. wheee haha we just went there, be the audience for a guitar ensemble, some indian dance (INDIAN DANCE! IM INDIA YKNW! -.- ) and then listened to some talk and entertaining ourselves with doodling on the notebook in the goodie bag (actually, only anna.) and watching the ceiling drip water. -.-
haha. was super amused by it.

AND. we get to eat. free food. OKAY THAT'S NOT THE POINT. so sorry.
BUT i was that hungry T.T ahaha keep koping beehoon and hashbrowns and fruit tart and papaya. :DD LOL.
heh BIG HEADLINES : =X i shall not say. but smth amusing happened at this point in time as well. hehhh.
was kinda tired and listened to the radio and smsing.
ahahs. then anna saved me by helping me think of a question we can ask for the next time we go there.
yay.

ohwells i go prepare chinese zuo wen le. T.T
SARON~ wheee. lol. i miss my instru too much.

swing swing ;
8:10 PM;

lol tell you what.
i hate your guts.

oohyeahs my fav term for now xD
i dont know how i came up with this term though.
seems like a few years since i can think clearly.
headaches. ohdear. suck. D:

well, jiayou to everybody!
for exams mainly.
and syf too.
(:

we used to be able to talk about anything under the sun.
now?
hah. dont even think about it.

ohwells. busy schl life. starting to fear the leaving of sec4s. and also, the want to maintain everything for this year.
everything's starting to fall apart,
slightly.
and i wont let it continue to be this way.
not if i could help it.

yeaps time to sleep abit.
or maybe not.
see how first ba. headache you better go away soon. find a new partner yeahs?
i officially ditch you.
ahahs:DD
lol.

yeaps. tata everyone (:

swing swing ;
4:11 PM;

...
say bye.

place : suntec
date : 21 Apr 2007
time : eh.. wait i dont know.
T.T

OOHYEAHS BABY I FINALLY GOT A HAIRCUT WOOHOO!
okay sorry for anti-climaxing.
i meant to do that. the act sad part in frnt then the anti climax part behind.
ahahs.

lol. now i dont know la.
my hair.. hmm okay fine it rocks a lil more ba i guess:DD
heh.
ahwells back to hmwk.
byebye(:

swing swing ;
6:57 PM;

swing swing ;
10:32 AM;

&oohyeahs.
tune in to 987fm in the morn. songs rock like siao. ahahs.

i love stickwityou by pcd.
relates ya.

and yeaps as usual lessons were like a breeze.
without the headache. D:

im starting to realise i DO have stml i forget stuff.
or ltml.
anything. you choose.

being locked out of the clsroom again and again. -.-
wow.
&relive the memories of playing dance and freeze. ahahs. no laughing ya. but my best record was 4seconds anw. and i started laughing cuz sexy mama likes to target me and made me laugh like siao first.
rawr. controlling your laughter aint easy yknw.
okay fine for peepo like me la.
but i used to be able to do it! ahahs.

oohyeahs clarinets section rocks. wheee.
brother rocks too. i like talking to her on the train and playing arnd with our nokia5300.
:DD

not to mention the two shixians have a hornay side.
claireee too she tsktsk la. expected xDD
and zhiyi, farah and sarah hor. ahahs they were kinda quiet today ehh.

i gta stay determined.
and mugmugmug. EH I SERIOUS LIAO HOR.
im gna maintain.
else the ca grades wouldn't serve any purpose at all.
tests, im gna make you so easy that i will be satisfied with my results.
i will.
sprint till the end ba. (:

swing swing ;
9:13 PM;

JUMPS OUT,
get the shock of your life.

nono.
songs are gna keep me alive (:

swing swing ;
7:12 PM;

running on this pathway of life,
it seems so tiring all of a sudden.

so many things to deal with,
two words starting with the letter 'w'
first word : wow
second word : wheee

ohwells.

the how neh? think on the positive side lo..
haha and im really starting to be happier these days le.
(:

ahaha:DD im hungry again. ohman i wished i could eat as much as what i had that time at pizza hut! claire and the rest seriously stunned i ate really alot! woohoo. if my everyday diet also like that right, i think i will actually look normal for once leh!
not like a stick. -.-
rawr.

heh yeaps yeaps and then what ar? eat more will grow taller not ar?
will right!
aiyah dont care will or wont la. anw eat more la har jennie.
-.-
im talking to myself ohman.
hehs i go eat le tata.

swing swing ;
4:22 PM;

hahaha:DD

im a happy happy girl im a veh happy girl woohoo : D

okay siao diao liao.
haha.

hmm today was kinda a niceee day?

headache at first but later okay le. these few days headache quite bad though D:
lessons went by..
blahs..

nthg amusing happened during chem today.
more like scary. T.T
i feel guilty.
wheee but i love lab partner she completely brighten up my day.
not to mention the fact that mrs tan always say carry on.
and i will start singing
"WE'LL CARRY ON~
WE'LL CARRY ON~~"
xD
and then beishan will stare at me as if im an alien from outer space.
yeaps. she doesn't know me at all. she doesn't.

music lesson! woohoo:D
i love my saron can.
it's named.. umm..
peking.
if im not wrong.
the cutest instru ever and the one playing the highest note in the whole gamelan thingy!
:DD
not to mention that it is as cute as the person playing it..
ohno. i think wenhwee has seriously influenced me.
xDD
i commented that her e flat clar was cute (and is still cute)
and she says of course ma cuz the person playing it is cute.
LOL.

ohyeahs baby woohoo : D

and then hor.. today no bio test!
wheee la.
ahaha i recess break then discover and i was super relieved.
cuz i cant really say im prepared for it.
other peepo even worse.
never even study at all.
ahaha.

anw..
went je to eat with anna and sexy mama again.
haha planned to study de.
but had to leave at 6.
ohwells. D:

wheee the cute cute mickey pooh stitch cat bird donald thing?
hahaha mickey super hard to get so forget it luh..
xDD
then at first i got donald. claire helped me turn the machine de.
heh then after that i change with her i got the cat thing instead super sweet.
then i turned myself and got myself a pooh! xDD
the others were like OHMYGAWD JENNIE I WANT BUY FROM YOU!
-.-
next i got a stitch!
hahaha section stitch sia. we gna put for clar case.
xDD
then today.
i got 2$ exactly.
so i got two tries.
and i got exactly the other two!
ohman so lucky can!
im gna try my luck for mickey next time.
xDD

wheee hmwk time.
anw im still happy and high.
but i wish my hist file will come back to me.
D:

swing swing ;
8:17 PM;

i wna learn how to play the piano again.
>.<
i cant believe all the years of playing the piano those days were all crap.
i din know i was progressing at such a slow rate neh.
havent even exam yet then quit liao haix.

someone got a big big grand piano and i love it.
ahaha.

mass hmwk date sia win liao.
someone's house just rock like i dont know what la!
:DD

and tsktsk my chair dear also win liao.

radio stn heard loads of songs and sang along.
rocks.

plus the fact that i learnt how to play mahjong made it even better. -.-
LOL.
although i still dont really get it yet.
:DD

aha.

**

just so you know by jesse also very nice la!
beautiful soul..
because you live..
just so you know..
ohman!
xDD

songs and melodies of my life. (:
every single word every single tune put tgt,
says smth.
:DD

swing swing ;
10:44 AM;

ohno you din appreciate it at all.
you are so weird my dear girl,
you never never appreciate things that people who do care for you do for you.
you never ever.

&she told me not to care.
well, i could only try.
it sorta pains me to see someone upset like this,
of course unless it's someone i really detest,
or someone i completely think dont deserve my sympathy.

you never never appreciate.
and im disappointed in you for that.

as for me, yes im gna continue to survive.
hmwk time dear.
slap yourself awake.

swing swing ;
10:46 PM;

&zzz.
used up.
very tired. D:

i actually WISHED this day would come faster,
and pass by faster.
so that i will not continue to whack myself.
so that i will not continue to control the hatred.
for not being in it.

i was so so so damn wrong.

it's over. but still here i am now,
thinking about this.
we are really left out.
we are in it,
yet we aint tgt with you guys.

is this how we're supposed to feel?

=/
zzz.

&i wna think about it.
i was really shocked when i din cry really hard over it.
because usually i will.
i guess it was really because i couldn't understand ba.
i din really experience how it was like,
to be stressed and excited over that 15minutes.
and waiting for the results after that.

well duh.

ohwells real random.
but i hope we will be included back in,
soon.

swing swing ;
9:47 PM;

swing swing ;
7:31 PM;

the diff is big k.

promises are meant to be broken &you cant judge a book by its cover.
she's not who you think she is.
thought about that statement loads and yeahs.. kinda agreed.

**

everyone jiayou for syf. tmr's the big day. you guys gta chiong. gta wow them. gta give it your best shot. after all, you guys have practised so hard why let your efforts go to waste?
gogogo. you can do it bandsmen.

**

the word hypocritical seems to be suitable for everybody,
even at the most unexpected times.
and so, one just have to keep holding on,
and walk through this dark dark pathway,
to the destination of your dreams, your wishes and your fantasy.

everything will be alright girl. calm yourself down.

im gna be another santa claus tmr. -.-
chocs. different flavour this time tho.
lol..

and cards and cookies, i believe you guys know alr.
motivation k. so do us proud out there! (:

swing swing ;
9:07 PM;

swing swing ;
7:21 PM;

very tired prepare to see a panda named jennie in 3i clsroom tmr D:

"
where'd you go
i miss you so
seems like it's been forever
that you've been gone
"

woohoo sleeping time. :D

swing swing ;
10:28 PM;

it's been awhile since i wrote smth niceee. (:
im proud of myself.

I couldn't spot the moon tonight,
I just don't know why.
I tried so hard and searched the sky,
but I just could not find,
the bright round moon that accompanied me,
through all those lonely nights.

you see,
im so proud of myself now. -.-

yeahs i just aimlessly wrote that when i was waiting for bus 131 at the busstop outside united square?

oh wow man i dont know why but i just couldn't find the moon leh! &so i just crap some poem out. -.-

hmm i must be the suay-est rep in 3i.
zzz soon im gna report her for child abuse man.
it will affect me so much in terms of emotional health and learning! T.T
okay im probably just crapping and being a drama queen.

ohman this just suck my photo's gna be shown on the projector la.
zzz huili and alvi you better redo your photo essay i dont careee.
no way am i gna let my spastic face appear on the screen and let the whole cls laugh at me T.T

this little boy i saw today.
he threw his balloon forward, ran to catch it, but instead, he stepped on it.
it burst as a result.
and he cried.
-.- ohman heh.

date with liang again! tmr.
venue : either 3a or 3i. -.-
no we are so NOT gna be gross like the video. xD
fairy! ahaha i din tell anyone anything at all hor. they dont know what i talking hor!

hmm. i dont know i somehow think there's somemore stuff to post and crap about, but i cant remember!
ohman.
ltml. again. -.-

ohwells. tata then. i hope the pain will go away it's hurting so much. heh physically not mentally dont worry. :D

**

yay this is the edited part.

heh i forgot to mention that amusing things always happen to me in chem lab!
i SWORE i would post what happened during these few chem practicals.
heh.

one prac..
beishan : *wash test tube and tried to dry it with tissue*
*turns to jennie and says : eh jennie. you help me dry this test tube can? i wash the other test tubes.*
jennie : orh sure lab partner. xD
*stuff the whole tissue paper into test tube and realised she just did smth dumb*
*tried getting the tissue out but failed of course*
ohman! *shows lab partner the test tube*
beishan : ohmygawd! fill test tube with water! quick!
*fills.*
*still cant remove tissue*
-.-

today's practical...
jennie : wheee! you see i cover the test tube then test for the gas!
*covers test tube*
*screams*
the bottom of the test tube fell onto the ground
*stunned*
IT ACTUALLY MELTED MAN!
quoted by that annoying guy seating behind me.
nope not that water washing thingy.
-.-
anw, stunned.

:DD yeaps done. grandmama's story T.T

swing swing ;
9:03 PM;

wheee

wow what a day. : D

shant describe too much. some peepo know why some peepo dont. well, whatever.

hahah:DD

&i've got a bunch of crazy juniors im serious.
they are real keesiao and everything. tsktsk sia.

&yes i hate my hair to bits and pieces.

the lrt section spirit was damn nice. too bad we din video it or anything cuz it super super rocks. wah crap sia stand tgt fall tgt. &the lrt see us so united until it made us fall -.-
i love mummy wenhwee. AHAHA
i love darling liangshixian. :DD
(&yeahs i love brother chuashixian too but then she's not in here xD )
i love fairy claire. xDD
wait. seriously fairy claire abit.. -.-
i shall come up with another name for her some day.. xD

whole experience was SER WEET.
woohoo:DD

i hate my phone's batt on die-dening on me everytime i will be out till late late.
-.-

tmr's gna be sunday
sunday's gna be hmwk + proj day
hmwk + proj day's gna be sian day
(minus the fun peace laughter and joy i will get from the study date that is. xD )

swing swing ;
10:11 PM;

im back to where i was.
&my only goal is to find meaning in life,
to be happy,
&stay happy.

:DD
yay my cake.
(although it kinda suck i dont really like it. >.< )

lose yourself in the swings
the ups the downs
the ins the outs
&get back to the fairytale,
with a happy,
happy,
ending.

swing swing ;
7:45 PM;

TOGETHER by avril lavigne

smth just isn't right
i can feel it inside
the truth isn't far behind me
you cant deny
when i turn the lights out
when i close my eyes
reality overcomes me
im living a lie

when im alone i
feel so much better
&when im around you
i dont feel

TOGETHER
it doesn't feel right at all
TOGETHER
together we've built a wall
TOGETHER
holding hands we'll fall
hands we'll fall

**

&my heart is broken
im lying here
my thought are choking
on you my dear
on you my dear.

**

sometimes it aint easy to imagine,
what went wrong.
&friendship just isn't what it seems.
you never know.

&that's when you look up to the night sky,
the darkness all around.
and search for the moon,
which will turn it all around.

get it right.
facade.

swing swing ;
10:47 PM;

swing swing ;
9:54 PM;

woah im tired.
&freaked.

im not gna care anymore.
i care now also no use.
but im so gna care tmr.
YOU GUYS BETTER BE GUAI KIAS AND DO YOUR SS HMWK
other hmwk can dont do.
SS hmwk must do!
-.-

i have like SS hmwk, history hmwk, and phy ass to do today.
and BOY IM DAMMIT TIRED.
like shit man got eyebags liao.

zzz. havent posted long long posts for very long liao.

hmm. busy. xD

&respect. that was what he said.
general topic.
but yeahs. respect towards chers and responding is kinda impt.
just like with ms chan.
there must be respect.
they aint speaking to walls.
or blocks of wood.
or whatever.
&not to forget,
respect towards some other things is impt as well.

swing swing ;
8:16 PM;

OHMAN
whatthehell i hate you.
i hate you!
stupid go away.
i feel frigging uncomfortable.

i wna be superwoman.
can fly can do everything.
DAMN IT.

swing swing ;
9:08 PM;

lol!
feeling so nostalgic.
ahaha i miss west view!
and the many memories..
good and bad.

hah.
today hmwk got what neh.
-.-

swing swing ;
7:40 PM;

&deception in this world.
woo.

&just punch anything that throws itself at you.
noone will blame you you do if cuz of shock.
:DD

and i cant wait for sat. *winks*
and a (hopefully) cls outing.

and to revive those laughter and times we shared
memories ah wonderful memories.

ah prer fools to everyone.
im a nice girl i dont give a damn bout pulling pranks on others.
ahaha:DD

tmr?
hah. second break..
and..
well, a wonderful day i hope.
with all my clsmates.

afternoon gna suck. D:

swing swing ;
7:15 PM;