ON A LIGHTER NOTE~

see the moon up high,
see the stars shine bright,
see the shimmering dark sky,
it's such a very beautiful sight~

posters printed,
lectures attended,
mind set,
im ready and decided~

lets just pray
for another day,
everything,
would be okay~!

swing swing ;
7:35 PM;

swing swing ;
7:24 PM;

here i am again,

currently STILL feeling pretty.. *&^%$#@!

yeah you get the idea.

i wish i wasn't stuck here.
pathetically doing my si han and asking for the ge shi.
when others are obviously playing and wishing i would shut up and not disrupt the game.

i wish they weren't here.
it's only the third day,
and i alr feel as if im locked up in a cell.

now that i think about it, im not antisocial.
i crave for company.
i want people around.

&man, there are absolutely nobody i want around here.

swing swing ;
2:44 PM;

swing swing ;
2:21 PM;

swing swing ;
9:29 AM;

that drunken stupor.
in no other ways could i have missed it.
&yet,
i forgot it with the passing of time.

repulsive.
absolutely.
it only showed me how vulnerable she was to cracking.

i see it in another light now.
she's just another so very close to cracking,
it's her weakness, i ought to neglect and forget.

not our fault in whatever way, mind you.
so i shall be happy.

day 2.
gambatteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

**

because when cars crash,
you blame the lagging reflexes.

swing swing ;
7:53 PM;

brace myself for homely hell,
im torturing myself with.. my own insults?

my ego got some pretty big hits today.

im depressed.

i want go out.

im random.
even when depressed.

i shall go and die TT

swing swing ;
9:21 PM;

we drink coke
and watch people smoke,
and stare at them
while they drink THEIR coke.

lame sia.

**

Like a hiding white little rabbit,
I'm self loathing like what the shit.

**

i realise it was last week that i last posted.
o.o

well, uneventful week.
really.
basically i think it was sunday when i went out with the two keesiaos.
constance and jiayi xD
morn, cons came my house since she was downstairs eating anw,
we played viwawa hahaha she taught me mahjong, a little.
i won a few games thanks to her. hahah was still a noob then okay.
my family + cons went to orchard road to have lunch before we meet jiayi, hahah my bro totally cant wait to tell cons some lame joke he heard from his friend. it was funny.
we met jiayi later at borders. turns out neither of us are "late" since she reached there late too. xD
contemplates long long, cons reading book, jiayi finding book to buy, me obsessing over twilight CALENDAR. o.o
went to kinokuniya later xD compared prices, went back to borders ._.
and then we bought the stuff we wanted. wahpiang i swear i was torn between the dilemma okay. now, i think it's pretty xintong to have spent all that money D:

mon was scs day. she was finally back. im glad. after her, i took this quiet girl who's really careless in math. hahah, but both were very guai1! :D

tues onwards was hell time, we pretty much went to schl, get back results, and went home. uneventful shit,

there was one day i went with jiayi to vivo, to shopshop, (tues?)
wed was going home early ._.
thurs was scs.

had band meeting today.
hmm,

i feel tired TT ready to collapse.

sigh.

swing swing ;
7:58 PM;

WAH~
whines like sot i tell you. this is gna be a high post.

hmm lets do a checklist.
1. exams are over
2. went huili's house to play
3. i cant play card games
4. damn tired i swear

okay, so exams are over. i just hope i wont cry when i get back the papers TT

okay so we went huili's house today right after cid. went there, &they started playing mahjong.
so i watched the new twilight trailer with huiyuan and serming and huili for a little while again,
then went out to play card games.
we called alvina to come over quickly so that there can be 4 playing mahjong and 4 playing card games. (she went home to bathe and sleep xD)
so i played for awhile, learnt alot of stuff i swear.
there's bridge, daidee, speed (nopes, it's split. banana split. doesn't it remind you of anna? xD)
and last but not least, pig.
so i relearnt bridge, relearnt daidee, and SPLIT was funny i kept losing because of my lagger reaction time.
ohwells at least i won one game over serming. but that's not comforting at all! serming's a noob, it should be natural to win him. xD
we went out to buy food, i bought milk tea which i couldn't finish, AGAIN.
err, came back, alvina still wasn't here, and they're still playing mahjong.
o.o

played card games again ended up being damn high shuffling the cards for damn long and made serming pissed xD and laughed like sot.
pig was terrible. alvina kept making these funny noises,
and im the loser at pig btw. ._. nvm, i've alr admitted my being a pig anw.

the last game we played was terrible. there was : (order from my left)
serming, anna, erjie, jiayi, alvina, huili, me
we played pig and had a horrible time. but i retained my level quite well, everyone kept tricking me, i just decided to shut up xD
laughed like shit and watched spongebob which was a really bad idea cus watching with this bunch of people made spongebob feel like happy tree friends.
comeon la, squidward choking on his clarinet. OWN! ._.
i wish i could do that. my throat needs to be bigger (jiayi and constance should know why)

dammit so im really tired. watching them play mahjong was funny.

haiya my brain's going overload.
the contents that i stuffed inside for eoys aren't COMPLETELY gone yet,
and i just learnt how to play two damn games.
have i mentioned that i keep forgetting to switch to daidee mode and bridge mode and can totally forget how to play the games?
._.

-edit
the two/four circles in the lift were funny xD
smth between haiwei serming and me hahs.
edit-

wah TT i want cry. there's so much to do!

hmm another checklist:
1. WEEKEND/WEEKDAY OUTING WITH A FEW FRIENDS
2. BUY PUZZLE, SUDOKU, ANYTHING
3. SPAM MYSELF WITH FANFICT SO I WOULD MAKE MY ADDICTION WORSE
4. RELOAD MYSELF WITH INFORMATION ON TWILIGHT MOVIE/BOOK
5. GET BACK SAID BOOK AND LEND HUIYUAN SO SHE WILL UNDERSTAND MOVIE
6. LAMENT OVER THE EXTENDED DATE OF MOVIE. DECEMBER! TT
7. WAH TT FIND BACK MY TSUBASA CARDS AND PLAY LIKE SAI
8. FIND SONGS AND GO MAD
9. PLAY LIKE SIAO, AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST
10. SLEEP LIKE SIAO.

tahs, long post eh? xD

swing swing ;
8:13 PM;