okay new skin's up (:
heh.

rawr
i like to rawr you peepo can see ba..
if cannot, then you guys are pathetic. =X
xD

WHATEVER IM OFF TO DO MY HMWK NOW.

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7:57 PM;

perhaps if things were better.

maturity, ass.

hugging her feels like hugging a cactus. HELL i hate doing things i dont mean.
deceive.

influence.
when i thought i wanted to drift away from it,
i came moving back many times the speed that i drifted away.
jennieyip will never be the same again that's gna be a sad fact.
not gna be the guai kia not gna be the OHMY im super guai and im the teachers pet ^^ yay wheee.
no not anymore.
maybe the teachers pet still stays EH WHATTHEHELL.
lol.
xDD
nopes im just.. im not as guai as before le.
scary transformation.

it feels so thorn.
i wonder if you could FEEL it.
the moment i took IT out.
the moment i threw it in my bag.
the moment i decided that things would really never be the same again.
and the moment i gave up hope.

why should i cling on.
why should i say things i dont mean.
why should i ATTEMPT to get the you i liked, BACK.
why should i?
when i know it's impossible.

stop saying nothing is impossible. zzz.

im angry with you if only you could tell.
i thought you could. too bad you dont.
well notice the drift ba.

&im drifting away from the teevee too.
D:
it's sad. but yea.

im drifting away from ALL of you.
im sad. totally.
and i always seem to blame OTHER STUFF.
is our friendship that weak?

i had enough la.
this life is tiring man.
it wouldn't be surprising if i really ended my life one day.
of course,
i wouldn't be so silly.
but
yes i do consider at times..

i remember that period of time.
it was hell.
i dont wanna go back again.

PS i repeat. MATURITY.

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8:28 PM;

we were high today.
and duh i joined in.
laughing is a form of stress relief.
and it's true.
it's healthy as well.
-.-

the only difference it makes is if you are forcing yourself to do so, or you laugh simply because you want to laugh and you mean the laugh. you mean it. you dont force yourself to you really really mean it.

the lessons went by one by one and i was completely dreading the tests which were edging closer and closer as the clock ticked.
i, again, has no comments regarding the tests.

it was over finally. and lessons went on and on.
i kinda liked the drama lesson today and i think i was super blur and retarded when we were playing the game couldn't really concentrate and kept IMAGINING THINGS. noone winked at me and i moved. and when someone did wink at me i was super slow reaction and huh before i WANTED to move and AFTER my partner hit me on the shoulder.
how dumb can i get?
very.
but we had some great laughs.
for the acting part i was a sad girl in my group who failed my tests again and again.
constance was the one being sarca and keep suan-ing me.
i think if she did that to me in real life i would just cry and hate her forever.
i mean it.
qianhui and shuting make up my encouraging family. (:

other groups did quite good too hahaha.
haiwei's group with the icecream. it was super haha.
serming's group with the timetable.
junyi's group with the drugs.
my reaction.
LAUGH fullstop
WOW fullstop
haha super drama lol. turtle managed to surprise me once again tsk.
my group with the curtains. (:

wheee yeaps i love the drama lesson today.
but i still hate our red monster cher zzz. WHATEVER.

hey lang arts was nice.
my answers were all crap to her. i answered three times and her reply to two of them was NONSENSE. hahaha wt! but nonetheless it was super stupid. :DD

we were playing in the hall highing.
passing on pokes and slaps and bish and BAM on the shoulder and stuff.
zzz hahaha i was one end of the passing game.
wonder who's the other end think is serming is it?
hahaha super funny.
and the performance was wow the dance was great (:

ohwells and i went home feeling neutral again.
laughs gone whatever.
long face back.
and i wna tell everyone jiayou for phy.
i need a jiayou too T.T

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7:07 PM;

i hide my inner feelings.
those that are hiding in the corners.
not wanting to show.

i hide.
and i fear.
for too many
have disappeared.
i fear
for history would just repeat
itself over and over again.
i fear
for i've been reminded
of the past i used to
tremble
in
the darkness
within..

i wanna lock myself in
for it doesn't make any difference
only the hurt
remains.
and understanding
is only
what is needed
to release it..

but i fear.
of the truth that gets helplessly trapped
in that little heart shaped container.

hiding.

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read the post before this post.
otherwise dont read this post at all.

i feel hurt.
but seriously who cares.
not like i cant live without you.
i've got others arnd me who can do whatever you do.
and probably even better.

i find that i dont really click with you.

comeon what is wrong with some people. D:

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hellos yay (:
ow it hurts so much.

today was a great day yay. :D
and im beginning to get used to the new seating arrangement in class.
now me and erjie's behind tablemates are not anna and huiyuan anymore D:
so sad la.
but they are haiwei and kexin now! :D
wheee. (:

and cons. and jiayi. they all now at my mortal and william's place leh!
eee! but nvrm we are still not too far away from one another still can crap abit here and there heh.

wait dont ask me bout the tests im gna say NO COMMENTS and you better shh le k.

band was alrightie wheee.
(my current fav phrase : alrightie.)
heh wheee (:
yea band was alrightie. i went to band and gim completely scared the socks out of me with her stares ):
she asked me when 3i was released. wow and i thought i was late. wait. was i?
stupid cid but i got the pics wheee (:
stupid feather skirt rawr.
ohwells.
ohyea back to band. my lips were super dry again ow. and i had a little moodswing and there was my face which cause misunderstandings. thank goodness this time no misunderstandings cuz we played songs after songs and although i was abit RAWR but still playing cheers me up wheee. it distracts me.

ohyea i got a BROTHER today!
wahaha.
i shall intro my brother to u guys nxt time k!
he is none other than..
MY DEAREST CHUASHIXIAN wahaha.
lol. she's super funny today. and i completely acted spas in frnt of her with my 20 20 joke. and all the other jokes as well =X
hahaha. and my brother's super nice. lol although she is so much stronger than me. i cant lock her in D:
we were locked in a classroom by our dearest wenhui and xiaomeng lo! pro la.
:DD
it was a super cartoon experience.
(:
and i got out wheee. HAHAHA WENHUI I NOT THAT NOT STRONG! :DD lol i dont make sense heh!

my BROTHER and i wheee.
(: chua im gna run with her nxt time whenever i see her running (:

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9:05 PM;

i will try to make this a short one.
needa suan someone. -.-
please read the next post (the main post for today~!)
if you think im not talking bout you (:

lol.

looks can be deceiving.
i felt pretty angered then. &perhaps i've cooled down abit now.
sarcasm huh. whatever. you want sarca i also sarca la. i cannot sarca meh. ha.

i dont know la. grah.
but just hope that someday you will be honest with me.
and just tell me.
and then we can settle it.
and full stop no more nonsense.
offended. grah.

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haix my #78 post now.
since im sian.

i finished my bio leh.
so :DD
lol.

chem i totally ???!!!

anybody know what phy test will be on?
i hope it's conversion and stuff. cuz xD conversion is easy!
then no graphs please. im scared of graphs. i see graph will die one. =/ no graph please!

stupid chem article. anybody help me?
)):

haix.
kuai dian leh.
im sian diao here. ):

haix.

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post 75
*counting down*
:DD

foul mood.
NOT BECAUSE IM STUDYING AND WHATEVER NOW.
is because of what i asked myself to THINK.
am i putting too much pressure on myself?

zzz.
but i should.
otherwise end result would be horrible.
and i'll spend my whole life crying.
why din i try my best then?
yea.
so i shall try to push myself.

but does pushing myself work?

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my #73 post

a very good morning to everyone
full stop

im in a very good mood now
full stop

nice beginning to a post dont you think
question mark
^^
but
comma
too bad i dont feel that way
full stop

yes it's cny. yes everyone should be happier.
but is it wrong to study?
is it wrong to do my hmwk?
is it wrong to have to be cooped up in my damn room just to ensure good grades?
is it wrong to work hard?

tell me.

you people are siao man.
first
you actually treat my goddamned cute bro so much better than me &you dont even bother to hide it it's so damn frigging obvious.
second
you actually said i dragged a long face in front of you
then you kan bu shuang ar?
then dont kan la.
nobody ask you kan anw.
nobody force you to kan.
that's not the point.
but seriously, who started it?
tell me man.
who started it.
who started it by being guailan and being freaking biased?
that's STILL not the point.
cuz you probably think that im just being freaking immature and blindly accused you of being biased when you're not.
hah.
NOT THE POINT.
third
but everyone gta agree with me.
if seriously..
you two were good ____________ in the first place,
and dont cause BLOODY ______ CONFLICTS,
tell me WHY this ______ is BLOODY depressed right now.
THAT'S NOT THE POINT.
hah seriously. NOT THE POINT!
but it's an unwritten FACT man.
you two are really the ONLY cause of ______ conflicts man.
NOW TELL ME WHO THE HELL IS MAKING EVERYTHING A PROBLEM.
AND CAUSING THE CHINESE NEW YEAR TO BE LIKE THAT?
yes i should reflect too because i DID pull a long face and all that.
BUT HEY TELL ME WHICH KID WOULDN'T DO THAT WITH PEOPLE LIKE YOU?
whatever im not trying to defend myself.
yes im in the wrong.
i dragged a long face and im sorry for that.
BUT THINK.
do YOU TWO have to reflect?
THINK.

there are my parents to help me i guess.
but still, if this continues,
i rather die man.
my parents.
both of them are tackling their own problems.
at work.
in this house.
they are tackling the same problem.
why should i add on to their troubles?
tell me why.
but what can i do?
bloody hell.
zzz im using the word bloody again.
haha bwala gor completely influence me ytd night to use bloody. :DD
that was abit out of point.
but nvrm.
zzz.

HELL this blog is starting to become a place for me to get frustrated and all again.
huiyuan came to ask me why i was so moody these few days.
dont ask.
i cant explain.
i cant explain why i cried that day.
i cant explain why im so moody these days.
i cant frigging explain.

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11:02 AM;

it's dead.
the feeling inside.
dead is all that it is..

ooh yea &im feeling darn happy right now.
why? just ask me why.
i will tell you why.
cuz i think there exists such a word as biasness.
&i LOVE this word man.

not that i am feeling jealous or anything but then.. hey.
u laugh at everything he does.
and completely turns to me shouting in my face reminders, etc.. REMINDERS.
hey reminders leh.
there is such a thing as gentle reminders and stuff?
and please. dont freaking scold me for EVERYTHING.
cuz i might as well do nthg and expect to get scolded as well.
wait. it's just that. hey. unfair treatment?
hah whatever.

and please please i ask of you to fully understand the situation before you freaking blame me for anything.
hah.
cny coming so i should be happier. and not always get cooped up in my own room and not come out for hours and hours. wow. hey ever heard of anything called studying and homework?
hello.. this is hmwk im talking about leh. why else would i be in my frigging room eh?
and one more thing. i cant be happier. the sight of you makes me frown. to tell you frankly.
hah and puh lease.
ever heard of anything called TESTS AND EXAMS coming straight after cny?
(okay for year3 rvians, i bet you din until you entered rv.)
yea man. we are super LUCKY to have tests and exams coming right after cny.
and you frigging blame me for being in my room to study?!
wow.
i repeat.
WOW.

this has turned into hell man dont expect me to smile.
dont ask me if im okay or not cuz i will tell you im FINE.
this is my life man. i gta accept it.
HOWEVER HARD I TRY.
frig.

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im gna countdown to my 77th post.
7 is my fav number you see.
lol.

right.

oww.
they are red &swollen now. i cant even blink.
they hurt.
AND IM THE PERSON TO BLAME FOR IT.
why the hell did i tear zzz

next week is gna be hell.
yea wish everyone jiayou.
and of course i must PRAY le.

I WILL TELL MYSELF I CANT BREAK MY OWN PROMISE TO MYSELF AND THAT'S THAT!
STUPID JENNIEYIPCHUNYEE I WILL HIT YOU AND RAWR YOU TO DEATH IF YOU NVR DO WHAT YOU PROMISED YOURSELF K!
zzz i know im a siao chabor you dont have to remind me.

_______ hurts.

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im TELLING you before i explode.

a sick person leads to you GOING CRAZY YOU GO MAD YOU GO WHATEVER!

i cant stand it FRIG.
FRIG FRIG FRIG!

z
z
z

like what's her problem la.
pardon me for this.
BITCH.

haix she's definitely sick.
in her mind.

DONT EVER ASK ME WHO THE HELL SHE IS OR WHATEVER K.
im just using this as somewhere to.. hmm.. settle my emotions.

chinese new year coming soon stop it ya.
YOU DONT DESERVE SO MUCH ATTENTION YOU SHOULD JUST GO TO WOODBRIDGE OR WHATEVER. YOU ARE DRIVING PEOPLE MAD WITH YOUR NONSENSE ALRIGHTIE? DONT BE SELFISH LA YOU WANT MAD YOU GO MAD YOURSELF. DONT DRAG OTHERS INTO IT. AND YA.. RESPECT IS NOT GOING TO BE PUT INTO CONSIDERATION HERE.

she's screaming her lungs out again.
i must really be thankful that i still have my dearest mummy who understands the situation more than anyone else and can cheer me up.
nobody else really really understands the situation. really really nobody understands so dont ask me what why who when how RAWR I ALWAYS CANT REMEMBER MY 5Ws! zzz.

zzz i gtg. ):

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(: im a super whee today.
that sentence wrong like siao but nevermind!
im waiting for my sweets tmr ^^

super high with that bear bear heh. :DD

MY BEARBEAR IS CUTE DE K! huili and constance~ huili say not cute.
constance say not the cutest thing in the world but still cute at least she better than huili.
:DD
huili~ my bearbear is cute!

&yea our dearest mr choy came back wheee. he was completely BBQed xDD
recapped with us our math stuff to prepare us for the coming math test on wed i think.
wow super *gasp*

chi
had to do si han! i was *gasp*
i hope i did not bad seriously.. :/

we were left with very very little time for break well some of us. ):

i skipped some of the not so interesting lessons.

lang arts was hahaha our formal letter was under warning letter.
so was super short
&we talked bout ms chew :DD not to be later for her lessons unless u want to do a 800word essay hahaha she said she had nthg to say and the class had a laugh. xDD i presented yknw! ^^
our script was the only script she din mark heh wonder how many marks this letter deserve it was damn short xDD

drama was also xDD
altho i hate _______ and i wont put a :/ since everybody hates her. rawr.
but i was supposed to be adeline and constance the teacher. xDD
ADELINE~
:DD
haha okay fine but this adeline im playing here is super despo and super full of suicidal thoughts.
not the adeline i know ar~~
yea i acted super despo but apparently it wasn't enough *sobs* whatever.

SS we went 3h clsroom i dont know why dont ask me why lol..
and i completely saw sylvia's pink water bottle and went super obsessed with it and took it and played with it.
wonder why sylvia din bring back her water bottie tho. xDD im gna use my blue one tmr. xDD
heh i put it back dont wry sylviaaa if u r reading this xDD !

hahaha:DD
history movie was WOW.
violent gory bloody super GASP.

haix phy~~ ):

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8:34 PM;

woohoo (:

it pays to be one of who i consider as special people!
:DD

that thing completely reads:

me to you
always friends

AND THAT BEAR IS SUPER CUTE whee

hahaha not to mention what i bought for ______
&______ :DD

super nice super nice i dont rly remember the last time i had so much fun:DD

and yeaaa (:

heh so what if one goes? another comes! xD
like whatthe. im so gna treasure whatever i have.
rly.

and chocs.
and sweets.
(:

and stars.
and my oh so wonderful valentines pressies im gna get soon! well i hope. =X
i love everybody:DD

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baa baa black sheep.
:DD

friday. quite nice :DD
haha 3i girls gathering in the toilet wow?
:DD yea and we threw ping pong balls in the air and clap once and catch it again.
then clap twice.
then clap thrice.
and so on and so forth. it was super amusing lala.
saw misslim halfway and she was super nice only ask us to walk faster lol!
yea anw today's last day with her and misstang! ): super sad can.
we took pics bytheway. classpics &..
no1 i hope i dont look spas. well for those pics which were not supposed to be spas.
no2 wheee! haiwei send me send me! :DD
3i is a super on class &i love my super on class wheeeee.

went to band &woah. haha sec1s sitting arnd and i very bu xi guan.
then we just go set instru and stuff. they dont know how to set instru yet im shocked! ahaha. :DD
but nvrm then ask them change reed and stuff teach them to season. blahs. i was a busy girl wheee:DD
heh i love the sec1s super blur but cute lo. i hope they do jiayou tho. and yea i seriously think their impression of jennieyipchunyee is.. IM A SUPER HIGH AND CRAZY SENIOR. zzz.
2 out of 7 are from westviewprimary though!
and the girl super.. hmm.. NICEEE. haha i dont know anw it's a pleasant feeling knowing her. think i saw her before back in westview whee.
:DD

my clar is with kaizhen wahaha. byebye to my baobei! kaizhen take good care of my baobei ): ahaha. (:
and hello to my new baobei aka gim's ex darling!
haha.
just hope i dont squeak too much :/
and yea im definitely liking my new baobei:DD
im gna polish my new baobei till it's super shiny wheee.

and somehow she aint that bad. :/
and somehow i CAN click with her.
but then.. okay fine lemme just get used to her.

the conflict between them :/ super frustrating.

clar section had a nice nice long long talk today i hope it did bring some of us back to our senses. jiayou everyone man! (:

yea. (:

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9:25 PM;

wheee

a zihigher is me!
and me is zihigher!
wheee

and a moodswinger siao moodswinger me. boo. ):
miss lim's so sweet she saw me completely down &she said cheerup to me! :DD

aww they are leaving! ): can?!
miss lim &miss tang!
)))))))))))))))))))))): !

i almost cried man.

we went lib tooooooooooooooo

je lib &i went home late late ):
scary &dark eeeeeeee.

i super want nice nice valentines gifts! :DD &im gna go buy for whole class too if i can (:
3iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii we super rock! :DD

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8:54 PM;

the baddie tallie completely tricked me ):
everybody bullies me ):

haix.
reminds me of those times.. >.< ! rawr! i hate it!
you know the feeling of feeling all
zzz GET LOST!
?

well it feels like that. ):

z

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6:53 PM;

whatthehell.
i shall choose to ignore.
alot of people im gna ignore.
zzz.

why cant their actions be accepted.
): ohwells they brought it upon themselves. hmph.

ohya. ive got loads loads hmwk &it's super not funny anymore. with all the things you have to do &get assessed on.
im not stressed.
i shall cool down relax. &cope with it. (:

zzz im really gna cope!

im not laughing anymore. no more hahas for me if i dont want to break the promise i made to myself. ):

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7:48 PM;

IM SUPER DISTRACTED.

PLUS PLUS MY HEADACHES.

AWW MAN! JUST ASK MR HEADACHE TO GO AWAY!
I DONT LOVE HIM ALRIGHT.
AND I DONT CARE BOUT BREAKING HIS FRIGGING HEART.
ZZZ.

RAGE LA HUH. WAH LAO EH!

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zzz.
tml is monday leh! im so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
:DD

really gna high with haiwei &jiayi :DD

&i swear it's a stupid &boring day today.

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heh im super amused with myself this is my forth post for today~!
:DD
i definitely agree with serming. i AM a great blogger. :DD !
hahah.

just that.. hmm. i hate blanking out leh. like my brain's not functioning or smth. zzz.
i cant think.
maybe cuz the ever hated headaches of mine are back again.
im really having headache now. )): !

stooopid headaches go away!

haix annoying crap.

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wheeeee. 50posts.
50th post. ((:

today is nononoday. ee my term lo. &people always steal my term. ):
hahaha.

im super amused by my acting and stuff. super super super amused!
:DD

lalala OHYA I ALMOST LOST MY PURPLE FILE AGAIN!
third time leh! zzz!
heh wenhui was saying im lucky i got it back.
and i PHEW.
lol!! hahah.
if you happened to see one siao chabor running from band room back to where the clarinets section was having sectionals today, im telling you. THAT SIAO CHABOR IS ME!
ohya got two siao chabors actually. clairelu run back with me hahaha! :DD
i wanted to kiss my purple file and hug it and whatever la huh. LOL.
PEOPLE REMIND ME TO TAKE GOOOOOOOOOOOD CARE OF MY PURPLE FILE!

hahah i ran 3rounds today *pantpant*
my legs will go all suan lo. ):

im super pissed cuz some cher of 3i super likes to digress.
not that it's not good. but like i told constance,
digress.. then after that come back lesson my mind will go blank.
ahaha. okay maybe not that cham. but ya. i just dont like her digressing till she wastes her time la. wasting our time also.
zzz other chers digress &they know when to STOP. she dont.
=/

im not that sort of person whose mind will go blank during lessons one leh! im a good girl k! yea. :DD

hmm my notes are all super out today i dont know what's wrong =/
super sad.

kiwi took 93 today lo i was damn shocked. then we talked for awhile &he got off the bus. WVPS peeps should know who's kiwi la huh.
&then i shared some lame jokes with yikai and he completely du diao. :DD

im so super sad i dont know my angel! rawr!

hahah.

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9:44 PM;

firstly..
HAPPY BDAY WENHUI~! (: BE HAPPY GIRL!
rocks. :DD

talk about happy stuff first ya. (:
im just happy. and zi high ing seems to be what im constantly doing now.
(:

now sad stuff.
i hate the buses i take to schl every morn.
rawr. notice the diff.
early bus: reach 645
late bus: reach 715
:DD that's a pretty SMALL diff dont you think?
i hate physics. that's another one. i completely hate it.
&zhaowei! im gna go check with him for mr teo's schedule.
&
eeeee she's starting it again. im hating it. every single day i have to listen to rubbish.
i feel damn sian damn restricted damn hate it.
sucks.

valentines. hmm what am i gna get for my mortal and everyone? :DD i promise im gna be a great classmate yknw! 3i rocks ar!

haiwei is backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!
woo~!
but she din zi high with me when i was zi high ing. ):
&when she was zi high ing i din zi high with her! )):
ohwells im just glad haiwei is backkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

im a crazy girl whose mood swings are not evident not just yet.
that's good yknw.
i hope my class just dont see the worse side of me. )):

i thought bout deceiving.
i thought bout how im acting.
i thought bout what others think (when im not supposed to.)
&i thought bout myself.
&most importantly i thought bout you.

hell it's not even 1year yet okay. dont end it.
the other one at least it ended only after about a year. i dont want you to be worse off than that person.
but hell.. i would rather lose you than keep a you that im starting to dislike.

3i! heh serming created this email that we can use to email our mortals! that's a real good system you know! :DD
&i still dont know my angel rawr!
anyway here's the email. very long. :/ i thought of it de leh. and the pass too. :DD
threeiscream4icecream@hotmail.com
for the pass go look for serming or me (:
okay fine i just received email from serming. saying the pass and the email add. lol.. check your email!

(: okay that's all im afraid i will bore people. ):

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