&braces braces! :D
altho i still think the consequence is abit big for me to handle la.
for one, i very scared pain one. that time go pierce ear damn scared. in the end cried -.- then that time got the injection thing? i also scared until i cried -.- and then recently i also fell down &i cried. so you see now, im damn scared of pain. but nvm la it's not you guys fault, im kinda emo before that as well it's good that i can let the tears flow too lols. got excuse ma! fell down. TT
another thing, performance how? grah. but thank goodness i will only be putting braces at the end of the year, then speech day is still okay (:
i hope everything goes well. :/
heh &..
HOT PINK BRACES ARRR!
BIGgrins.

damn sian nowadays. everyone's so emo. jiayi, serming, etc etc.
i never say i not emo wor. zzz. it's just, when it's time to high, why not high along la. mass schl dance also dont want dance. like i have the mood like that. but think about those emcees up there la. they all ask you dance you all dont dance must say sorry to them k. so saddening de la.
&then everyone's so emo, when everything quietens down, i get abit emo as well.
LOL la.
one day im gna make everyone sing,
LALALALA LALALALA ELMO'S WORLD~
then they will know that emo ness is not nice. elmo nicer :D

new phone, have i blogged bout it alr?
it's samsung u600 &i think i love it like loads loads la!
it's so super cool with the touchscreen and stuff. then super chio also. eh really chio k. jennie say chio then is chio okay. jennie say not chio then not chio. i got taste one hor.
:D
yeahs.
woohoo i hope i can use soon.
then i will start to get used to smsing with samsung phone again! so long never use samsung le! the last time was pschl i guess.. ohwait! i sec1 still got use! :D ohman that phone, my love can?
i will miss nokia 5300, all the music stuff, &flying finger! i still think it's really really fun to play la. &i hope i can keep on breaking my record like siao. then i can start playing 9keys and at least get a score of C.

also realised i havent been blogging much again. like.. haix abit no mood la. blog lil bit then think think then aiyah forget it la dont blog le. since blog and no blog no difference. lol..

haix sian.

swing swing ;
6:52 PM;

Up &down I go.
The faith, the hope.
And then everything's dashed again.

Well,
At least I'm still living. :]

I shall try my best to keep everything around me in the same old condition.
I don't want any changes no more.
Yeaps. No more changes. They are gonna drive me nuts soon.

&The black dots filled with hatred,
Nopes they can stay here all they want,
But I shall not be affected. (:

BIGgrins.

swing swing ;
7:01 PM;

read this on a blog of whom i dont know.
ahaha was trying to go to the blog of a friend of mine and ended up in this blog instead.
this girl's called lisa and she's seventeen. i hope she doesn't mind me koping her post =/

**

loss

it seems like everything is transient
you catch hold of something, feel that fleeting joy,
but soon your smile starts to hurt because all you can do is wait-
it's going to be taken away and all the crying in the world wont bring it back.
sometimes you live your whole life holding on to that one thing,
never realising it's gone
until you're left clutching air and kissing grey memories.

sometimes i think dogs sense pain.

sometimes i wonder why im so messed up

sometimes i wonder if this is how it feels to be crazy

and i wish it didnt hurt so much

i guess you can retreat from the world
but you cant revoke your heart
because it's from within
and the pain attacks from the inside
where you least expect it
and everyday is a struggle because to end the pain you'll have to numb your whole being
a dry ice sensation
distance yourself. be so cool that it starts to sting.

i wish i knew exactly what it is.
crying is therapeutic sometimes but i'd hate it to become my crutch accessory
and it doesnt help
every night i pray so hard that this feeling will end
this whole black wave thing
it's almost like my emotions are on drugs
being so out of control hurts in a way that makes me hate myself

why is everything so painful nowadays?
have i been desensitized all my life or it is just getting darker.
God please help me you're my only constant

months ago i dreamed of a tulip garden,
planted, waited, watched for its first appearance,
saw them bud, saw greeness give way to colours
just as i'd planned them

every day i wonder how long they'll be here
sad and fearing sadness as i admire them
knowing that i must lose them i always wish
them gone by tomorrow
- tulips by wendy cope

**

read and kinda reflected,
finding myself agreeing to every sentence in it,

&im actually kinda glad that there are people out there,
they feel the same way,
&i just hope that they could cheerup,
put another warm coat around themselves,
and breathe once more.

i had been there once,
i dont wna go there ever again,
&noone wants to go there either.

lisa, if you are reading this, (&i doubt so -.- )
cheerup ya.
everything's gna be better soon. (:

**

sighs,
constance and i shall be freaks doing hmwk before band prac on friday.

this hols,
it's that pathetic.

i only hope that i can finish nodame cantabile &train abit of maple by the end of this hols.

till my mugging days are over,
(hmm.. more like till the end of eternity,)
tata.

swing swing ;
4:06 PM;

realised that i havent been blogging much recently D:

&also, the fact that im really a PIG.
no im serious. i slept like a~
zzz
every morn :D

kept bro waiting for an HOUR at novena &i really apologise for that! it's really super *BITELIPS~!*
im really really sorry. blame it on my like to sleep till damn late in the morn habit and my phone speakers.
(grr.. speaking of phone speaker,
tsk, i dont wna talk about it. it actually din ring la.)
grah. ahaha anw had some sort of study date with chua today.
it was kinda nice,
we chatted &did our hmwk,

heh :D
&perhaps also abit of nodame cantabile as well to see what makes it so addictive,
&yeaps thanks la, i got addicted too xD

ahaha and chua too luh. both of us got kinda crazy over it,
me over my usual omgawd i love this show,
and chua over omgawd this guy so shuai lo. xD
okay la maybe not that extreme.

brother chua ahaha that sounds funny but anw, <33 (:

**

aapojgheapohaephap
yeaps that was a line of RUBBISH that you are probably O.o at.
i needa do smth to unbore me D:

YAWNS-

swing swing ;
9:13 PM;

im regretting i din really get it at first,
that love,
i thought i did but i think i was wrong.
this time it's a whole new different feeling.

i dont love band or klarinuts just cuz it seemed to be the thing that keeps me happy most of the time,
that was then, now is now.

i dont love band or klarinuts just cuz my greatest friends are there,
no i can tell you straight in the face now i dont.

ever since that day,
it was like how great the whole thing is,
it really hit me hard.
like im just dumb not to have realised it from the start.

everything the section has done for me,
&also how great the band has been,
how we faced everything tgt and play tgt,
how we produced sounds as a whole,
how we struggled through some stuff,
even those non syf peeps could feel the pain.
because we are a whole band, whether we are in it or not,
and listening to those criticism,
listening to how some people cried their hearts out,
seeing how everything is just practically falling apart,

yes,
im really seeing this in a different light,
and im so so so regretting that i only realised it this year,
that i love band &klarinuts. (:

swing swing ;
3:49 PM;

everything's just fine.

met up with haiwei, huili and junyi to do eril proj.
&i thought i was late. went there and saw haiwei's sleepy face xD
and then we went down to some random busstop.
huili came shortly after, &then came junyi
went to her hse straight.

this is like my second time going to huili's hse la and im still fascinated with her hse.
very nice yknw! :D
very modern that kind :D

yeaps &i love her webcam. comes with the laptop yknw it's like right up there then you can turn here turn there.

D: sad that erjie cant make it ~~
grah.

maple event very nice ahaha.
sorry im a noob hor. but i dont know what devil scroll is,
but since huili was like done with her accnt getting it, an then her friends' accnt too, i decided my accnt deserved smth as well :D
hahaha. damn funny la. huili's super excited over being the first and she's a pro clicker xD
then we just FOLLOW THE CROWD WOOHOO!
^^ i was like really fascinated xD

ch din get in AHAHA. and huili like got in 6times i think and she ran out of time during one of the rounds. but she still got in not too bad! ahaha her comp lag until damn funny at first. lols.

anw after that we had to go. the ppt like a wheee lols.

three of us went 7eleven to doughnut :D
they ate almond nut de i think or smth.
i dont know what i ate but it's choco xD
THIS PROVES THAT IM SPECIAL K! :D

grah feel so sian. im so on bout projects now. chem proj do when? ^^
BIGgrins.

<3 (:

&have i mentioned that i love being a klarinut? (:
heh that was real random. but im looking forward to band pracs each day.
hols pracs are damn nice they remind me of those times when im really close with a certain bunch of sec3 klarinuts.
we rock la :D

heh tata:D

swing swing ;
9:10 PM;

im telling you 3i chalet was wheee.
(but it can be even more fun. the whole class must be there first la. the more the merrier ma.)

at first was meeting up with kexin at bugis to buy some speaker so that we can blast music,
in the end joined serming they all at je.
-.- long story. xD

we took the train all the way to pasir ris &boy was it sian. actually okay la. since i've got my phone to entertain me, and my zihighness.

JEN :] : eh serming i tell you smth hor.
SM : *blank expression* i dont talk to noobs.

LIKE A OMGAWD LA. he's not baddie i dont know he's what liao zzz. dont know why he's my daddy somemore. -.-

also zilianed with haiWHEY abit with her cam. haha. (:

oh &the six people there can be divided into pink and dark coloured shirts woohoo.
i belong to the pink ahaha. was wearing my pink mickey shirt, again. i think it's in my favourite tops to wear list la lols. &then there's also those tops i always wear too.. wait dont digress.

took some bus to the resort since it was past 2pm alr and the rest will either be late, or has alr left.
went there first thing is check in la. lols. everything went fine until the staff at the counter said need some frigging 18year old adult to check in. ahaha knew that, but too bad we dont have any 18year old adult -.-
went arnd searching for some random guy who can help us check in. must be at least 18year old duh. &yeaps serming found one.
went to the counter again, another staff. she looked through documents and let us in le. like a -.-

im telling you pasir ris costa sands chalets suck. never ever go there. zzz. their double storey is totally like a single storey luh scam us.
zzz. but nvm. eh also hor! their floor like a damn dirty la, like eeyer?

haiwhey and huili went to buy icecream &in the end couldn't find where block J was LOL i went to find them. then was kinda bored and they started wanting to play cards.
SLAPJACK ;D
lols. sorry im just addicted. but they dont want. keep wanting to play daidee D:
when i finally got to play slapjack, it was with zilie, beishan &kexin. ahaha damn funny lo they two. like we can just entertain ourselves watching them stun awhile before they slap the cards -.-
later still kinda bored D: started playing flying finger again kept wanting to beat my own high score. :D &then i started playing music on my phone &sorting out the cards. lol. they want go walkwalk then ask me go too i was still sorting tho. and lagged awhile before i went ahaha.
alvi called me then, asked me to fetch her from the busstop. haha i din know the way and was hoping like shyt that i wont get lost.
saw jess they all and stunned them by suddenly appearing behind them and asking them where the busstop was. xD
they was going to cheers then so i will just fetch alvi at escape entrance after going to cheers :D
&alvi stunned me by coming into cheers. -.-

pam was hungry suggested going to kopitiam to eat LOL. everybody was like unwilling at first then after that 吃得津津有味 xD
milo craze lols :D

zhaowei actually called me and almost tricked me by saying i won lucky draw. &im like.. WAHLAOEH RIGHT LA I ALSO NEVER WRITE MY NAME FOR SOME LUCKY DRAW. but i still believed at first tho =x zzz.
haha bbq starting they want us to go back. so we went back wheee.
mr choy was there alr! :D haha then i started helping out abit by joining youwei in fanning the fire. make the fire bigbig xD
I TELL YOU MR CHOY POWER LUH! HE JUST FAN HERE FAN THERE THE FIRE REALLY SPREAD UNTIL DAMN NICE LUH! like a wow!
haha &we took group pic. got me and haiwei, group pic and some pic with cons &haiwei as well. dont know what youwei did to my hair -.- huili say got antenna again -.-
anw bbq was nice haha went up to room pillow fight, went down watched teevee, &huili brings the food to me she so nice la! eh i never bully her hor is she just "jennie, you want?" then i say want then take lo xD
yeaps nice nice.
another episode was youwei hiding in the cupboard &zhaowei asking xinhui &qianhui to go up and open the cupboard so that youwei can scare them lols. in the end qianhui went to stack stuff in frnt of the cupboard so that youwei cant get out was so damn funny xD
played polar bear as well. quite nice la. although cons made me die FOR FUN &i was a stupid polar bear for another round.

oh &have i mentioned that zhaowei &youwei kept saboing me by taking my pic on their cam or phone? (after i took zhaowei's spas pics that is xD )

some people had to go le then it was kinda sad D:

then was just alot of stuff la. played arnd, then went biking.
the guys altgt got 4bikes and i took the smallest one duh. long time never bike le &it was fun wheee. with the wind blowing through your hair was shiok xD
remembered the last time i had so much fun was still when i was living at jelapang.
circled the park and raced and stuff.
OH ZHAOWEI CANT BIKE STRAIGHT,
KEXIN IS A PRO WHO CAN LET GO OF THE HANDLE FOR SOME TIME &STAND UP TOO ON THE BIKE, &CAN GO SUPER FAST,
&JESSLYN ALSO FIRST DAY LEARN BIKING THEN SO PRO LIAO. NOW SHE ONLY NEED TO TRAIN TURNING PART THEN SHE'S A PRO. SHE CAN RIDE FAST I TELL YOU.

have i mentioned that zhaowei almost made me crash into him like alot of times cuz he couldn't ride straight?
yeahs kexin suffered too &jess too. see. tsk.

we went back at arnd midnight or smth? i dont know leh. then the rest took over the bikes and we went mac do hmwk.
hahaha lols shaker fries, diet coke, and I STILL WANT THE SHREK EARS -.- out of stock lo zzz.

camped at mac for about 4hours i think. according to them. hahaha. everybody was like tired then walked slowly back.

they wanted to bathe after that so i just tagged along,
came back saw the two poor guys sleeping on the floor, while some other people are up there in the room hogging the beds and playing cards.

yay we had quite alot of fun la. but after that i think everyone was damn tired went to sleep. was arnd 5 le.
hahaha wheee.
couldn't go escape later was sad. D: not enough time since i had to go for band prac ahah.
yeahs then quite fun la anw.

BAND PRAC WHEEE.
was late for 7minutes i think. 3min punishment D:
gim asked me to take section for tuning. o.o
haha very fun leh xD
LOL!

then stomachache got the worst of me -.-
grah. food poisoning la D:
couldn't really play.

D: tata

swing swing ;
9:18 PM;

3i peepo : tmr meet at 2pm at pasir ris stn. CHALET ^^
those who want to come but cannot come, D: !
those who can come but dont want to come, EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
COME HOR! xD

uh yeahs come leh. it will be damn nice luh all of us tgt and esp nightwalks and stuff. xD

OUR TWO DEAREST CHERS COMING! form &co-form so must come hor ^^

hahaha abit zihigh la. abit only.

those who coming, they will come.
those who not coming, YOU ALL MUST COME!
muahaha.

:D

dont miss me people, i'll only post again on fri night or on sat (:

swing swing ;
7:30 PM;

breathless,

&band camp rocks like a WAH.
yeahs,
our fried rice session in the morn was kinda nice,
&we found out that we could actually produce quality fried rice!
all of us chipped in a lil effort, it was great.

i realised that some babies can actually be scary,
lols.
but they can be cute too!

lihe's lil bro was fiddling with smth on her hand, some red mark.
&then we just suddenly like,
oh, then we started staring at the red marks,
and suddenly the baby started to point at the plaster on its toe and made a sound so damn cute but as if it's in pain and sajiao-ing.
ohmygawd la i was stunned xD anw very cute la.

we pro ness la.
still can watch disney channel, nickelodeon, cartoon network, and kids central.
xD win liao.
murong and lihe was like ohman you guys are so childish still watch, then after awhile murong came to join us and said, "ohwells. might as well."
xD lihe was stunned.

road runner, pokemon, and totally spies rocks. LOL.

reached schl at about just in time aha. turned out that some sections are also kinda late la hor aiyoh clarinets is fried rice leh. must excuse la xD
but anw we ate aha.
zhiyi commented smth bout our fried rice,
the two groups de fried rice de difference.
i laughed like a?
xD

we highed like a siao. did the,
GIMME ONE CLAP, *CLAP*, TWO CLAPS, *CLAP*, THREE CLAPS, *CLAP*
and so on thingy. super rocks la. and sec1s actually played CONSTIPATION. -.-
win liao ownage gg.

went to change after that and stuff,
wowness everything was fine ba until the goo part.
eew. okay sorry! ><
but i felt like puking can? -.-
it smelt like a.. erm.
haha dont wry im not the only one lols.
rinsed le and stuff.
went to toilet change back de shi hou,
we made sure we were quite clean alr aha.
&we rinsed abit more to make sure lols.

went to je,
there were our usual people,
like almost all the sec3s, since candy din join us and claire's overseas.
vengyi and farah too D:
then.. there were the excos and acting leaders aha.

had a great time thrashing out in mac,
shaker fries,
blahs. rocks like a?
xD
yay &also the group of people im with,
they hor. tsktsk.
super rocks la but still,
only abit biantai and stuff.
abit only.

had to rush back right after dinner chua rushed out after me and asked me to take the other way.
noone pei her go home la and she rushed out after me.
ohmygawd la.

plus liang too she rushed out after me, pei me walk across the road, and went back.

they messaged me.

**

at the end of it all,
im just really glad to realise that i have such great friends around me,
&i think im just dumb not to have realise it before,
they are really the bestest ever &all i've been doing was taking whatever they all always do for granted.
im just dumb.

klarinuts,
although we will still be tgt for quite some years,
(except for heling she will graduate this year, &i dont know.. it's just..)
i will really be damn sad when it's time for us to say goodbye.

i will cherish my friendship with you all like damn loads.
thanks for being there for me,

- JENNIEyipchunyee(:

swing swing ;
10:35 PM;

wheee fried rice tmr
klarinuts <33

band day camp tmr and i hope it goes well,
gooey?
heard that it isn't so this year.
but loads of water?
water FUN!
^^

hahaha i will try not to be flower vase tmr.
captainsball ohman xD
but nvm playing with band is getting kinda more and more fun every year.
^^

**

yawns but im getting more and more tired ahah.
lols.
tmr day camp,
and then wed,
and then thurs and fri got 3i chalet
WOOHOO talk about chalet.
my third chalet with 3i
ahaha
lols.

nightwalks,
all the fun stuff that comes with chalets
yay ^^
esp with 3i too.

sat &sun? i dont know. proj? i only know the langarts one must be on either of these dates,
otherwise we cant discuss as a group le.
as for chem.. hmm?

then there goes everything rawr.

YAWNS.

**

toot
my fault?
everything's my fault eh?

whatthetoot lols.

&i shall be the low profile girl you guys have NEVER known.

not the attention seeking girl,
the low profile girl.

hah.
tata -.-

swing swing ;
11:02 PM;

&the five sided shape,
the dancing flame (:

thurs rocks. i shant go into detail since it's alr very very detailed in zhiyi's blog xD
and heling's blog too.
anw our study date rocks la. :D

fri
band!
ehheh. &im looking forward to the day camp ya :D

sat
camp out at mac
&a family dinner.
steamboat buffet eh? xD bak kut teh was nice but i want tom yum if there's a next time!

sun
woohoo. i finished my chi proj today &learnt smth new.
:D
cons and jiayi came to my hse to finish our chi proj and ohyeahs strawberries rock:D
haha. im gna train not to be so retarded lols.

as for mon there's nthg going on for me aww rawr.
im gna pia hmwk and i think i mean it this time,
i think,
and then perhaps a few stuff here and there :D

see how first. heh. hmm.. projects, people.
jiayou:D

swing swing ;
8:27 PM;

this part was typed in the past,
saved as a draft,
&now gna be published.
20th MAY 2007

**

look at the beautiful garden around you. edge yourself towards that flower; it gives off such a lovely smell.

the scenery, the air. take a deep breath. doesn't it just feel so great? the air rushing into your lungs and filling your whole body with energy.

but too bad. unless you live alone in this world, there's no way you can ever stop by and find this lovely garden.
there's just no way.

noone can ever say the world is simple. cuz it obviously aint. it's full of darkness and evil and well, unpleasant traps that might jump out and catch you by surprise.

strength. there just aint no more of it left. and use your eyes to look around. you just want to shut the hell up and silent everything.
like how you mute your damn comp when you just dont want any sounds to come out from the irritating speaker.

but everyone just speaks, there's nthg you can do.
say 'ohwell' and get on with it.

look at everything through that broken glass. find what you havent found before. and search your soul for some answers.
in any case, the world is getting more and more complicated. dont like it? too bad for you.
walk on. edge yourself forward.
ha. no of course it aint easy.
but what else can you do?
stone there?
stop time from passing by?
ha. right.

**

was kinda bored. went through some of my earlier posts and found this.
well,
...

im kinda tired again. want smth to go on, smth big and happening, and that kinda stuff.
some motivation to do that pile of crap please?
and some of the crap aint even gna be seen by them.
they dont even look at them, not to say mark our work.

sometimes i will feel proud of my work,
perhaps the english ones,
&they dont mark it,
leaving me wondering how well i wrote.

math? the sense of achievement aint there anymore.
grow up jennie it just aint like pschl anymore.
or even sec1 and sec2.
you are in upper sec dear.

&through him i see the childish side of me.
the immature innocent and irritating if it's too much kinda thing.
that's why i would hate being a teacher,
or have any job that would involve small little kids.

i think they will see me and run away,
lols.
like how people in our schl runs away from _________
or
______
or
______
lols. the first one is more 恐怖 la.

well,
the pile of crap,
here i come.

swing swing ;
2:11 PM;

&YAWNS &HEADACHES.
hate afternoon naps.
you sleep till night,
(no, the prob's not with you cant get to sleep at night when you're supposed to, cuz it aint the case for me i still sleep. xD )
and then nighttime you have to stay up late to do stuff that you missed out in the afternoon.
hey im not nocturnal however you spell it.
-.-
(&sometimes, indeed, the word 'owl' pops into my mind.)

YES i rebonded my hair.
NO dont start freaking out on me.
hey,
im still JENNIE(:
and i dont look THAT different.
xD

shanghai one week trip?
nice. :D
summary : LOADS of nice stuff to GOBBLE on &LOADS of places to shop.
BIGgrins.
no i din buy anything for anybody,
dont come asking me for stuff and then giving me nthg when YOU GUYS went on a trip,
i want souvenirs too yknw.
and im not santa.
get that.

well, next time then i upload pics ba.

realised i've missed out on loads during this one week.
but who cares im so tired i cant even think what i missed out on.

maple?
half hearted now.
dont really wna chiong,
but wna chiong.
i dont know.
hmwk first ba.
so what if im a noob.
-.-
whatever. (no i dont mean the drink whatever. i mean the word whatever.)

&TOOT-
damn the headache aint gone yet and my afternoon's gone.
WASTED LUH.
-.-

**

eh.
wonder if you even care anymore.

dustbin eh?

**

throw me in some corner with my hmwk and lemme drown myself in the flood.
lols.

swing swing ;
10:32 PM;