it revolves around silence.
it had been for a period now,
and it's still going.
i'd hate to stop it,
but after all, it's kinda unbearable.
**
who says majority of teens hide behind a mask they painted?
come`on. everyone knows that it's only 0.00000000000000000000000...1% of teens who dont.
yeah dont deny. it's true.
how sad of the society now. our environment, our surroundings,
everything that influences us.
we talk emo during cid now. &so far, it might be the most interesting topic i've ever come across out of the other cid groups.
but i dont deny, this cid sucks. i really cant imagine why they gave us cid groups that were far more (i cant believe im saying this) fun than those they gave us now.
**
ohwells this period of time proved to be a hard one for me,
not like my life has been any better before,
but then again...
(yeahs you get it)
nopes noone exactly understands. that's just exactly what saddens me the most.
it's not the physical pain that hurt me,
it's what i felt inside.
it's those exact words you told him,
it's from those exact words i realised you dont even give a hoot about understanding.
you insist on your own reasoning,
and while i have my own faults,
you never did think about yours do you?
im not a crazy human being who dont talk things out.
i can. im not mad. (perhaps in terms of appetite, i do agree. but definitely not on opinions and values in life)
i can even start to understand what you said, what he said.
but then,
did anyone think about the emotional hurt i felt?
**
phy test went (i have no comments i seriously dont)
it's like those type of tests you cant have any definite answer about it, whether you would be able to get a good grade or not.
it's not as if the society nowadays value the process and not the result tho.
too bad for you if you get a bad grade.
i thought i did badly the other time, but it came out much much worse than i expected.
i dont have to explain the tears,
it's not just because im stressed,
it's not as simple and as an outsider you have no right to come and probe into why.
**
this is starting to turn into some ridiculous &emo post.
&then alvina would come interview me instead for cid. ^^
lols. im not that extreme tho.
i wouldn't want to bring a knife and carve stuff on my arm and laugh at the blood and wounds that come along with it.
i've gotten over mild depression once im not going to sink in again.