Thursday, April 23, 2009
pain.
swing swing ;
6:14 PM;
6:14 PM;
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
i've let go for you, why don't you let go too?
):
Whatever you say, darling.
a fool i am, but to smarten up i can't.
silly string, hope you pull through.
gta CONSERVE these few lines on my msn nick or smth.
might need to reuse them sometime in the future. compelling reasons k.
and now i can finally show my pissedoffness.
at life.
):
Whatever you say, darling.
a fool i am, but to smarten up i can't.
silly string, hope you pull through.
gta CONSERVE these few lines on my msn nick or smth.
might need to reuse them sometime in the future. compelling reasons k.
and now i can finally show my pissedoffness.
at life.
swing swing ;
9:42 PM;
9:42 PM;
"Flower Power here thinks she's got me beat."
And Little Miss Nice has gone out to play.
Her evil twin's not v happy either.
Goddammit nthg's going smoothly.
And Little Miss Nice has gone out to play.
Her evil twin's not v happy either.
Goddammit nthg's going smoothly.
swing swing ;
9:23 PM;
9:23 PM;
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Send me a rose - so its thorns would make me bleed.
**
Dear Clarinet, klarinutz loves &scores inspire. (:
**
Bloody irritated at lack of trust.
At fluctuating emotions.
Bloody irritated.
Just makes me have to prove myself.
But I'm just a bitch who can't do anything right,
I have so many shortcomings.
I don't (damn it) deserve anything.
Toot everything.
I'll show you.
**
Dear Clarinet, klarinutz loves &scores inspire. (:
**
Bloody irritated at lack of trust.
At fluctuating emotions.
Bloody irritated.
Just makes me have to prove myself.
But I'm just a bitch who can't do anything right,
I have so many shortcomings.
I don't (damn it) deserve anything.
Toot everything.
I'll show you.
swing swing ;
8:10 PM;
8:10 PM;
Friday, April 17, 2009
i'll be your bastard if you'll be my bitch.
a very vulgar version of
I'll be your burger king if you'll be my diary queen.
but i guess that's the whole point eh? shall tell zhiyi about it soon.
**
ahaha
WA-CHA!
im mad leh.
rofl.
today quite stupid.
im supposed to suffer from sleep deprivation (and believe me, i did, during chem tut -.- and gp)
but i was quite energised from the start.
all because my bag didn't contain my phone when i went out of the house this morning.
rushed back home, collected the damn phone, rushed back out, bus 186 has just left, took cab, reached schl at 640 ._.
damn stupid i swear.
chem lect was nice :D i should be like this more, as long as i dont get too obsessed like my daughter rofl.
was darn attentive, all because she's pretty. (heh xD)
and are you sure im not a les? o.o
stupid vengyi influenced me rawr.
pe was pissifying.
i din get to play badminton, had to jump with madeline instead. so we jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and im sure you get the point by now.
my legs kena spasm for awhile and i was pretty much close to collapsing on the floor.
):
had to do frigging AQ.
i pretty much hadn't written anything constructive for quite some time le. so i guess it's not too bad, really.
but still, reading the same paragraph over and over again was frustrating. couldn't focus, maybe im really too out of practice.
did my math next, and yea, im SO labelling - and - as my reliability from now on. they SHOULD be correct, and i can always count on them for a good answer sheet to..
.. check my answer la. i actually do my math de okay.
i trust them loads loads. hahaha. my class has great peeps.
dreamt about -,
and told shixian about it,
she was amused i guess. im just basically amused and puzzled.
weird dream nia. fall into drain. cant imagine xD
band was good,
the jiayou written on the board by sylvia was hilarious.
because the "oxygen" had a lone pair, and i was basically reminded of my qin ai de xD
(stupid vengyi and her influence)
and g's too tempting to ignore rofl.
(im becoming obsessed, am i not? zzz.)
too high, my clarinet is my darling again,
my scores are my inspiration,
and im gna "the climb" (yea.. refer to miley cyrus.)
not to mention the bunch of "that's not my name" keesiaos i have as my wonderful sectionmates.
i really cant get any luckier than this (:
(and who said blogging was bad?! it's a form of expression, just like overture and our SEA :D
tgt with the bliss i feel when im with the ones i love :D)
a very vulgar version of
I'll be your burger king if you'll be my diary queen.
but i guess that's the whole point eh? shall tell zhiyi about it soon.
**
ahaha
WA-CHA!
im mad leh.
rofl.
today quite stupid.
im supposed to suffer from sleep deprivation (and believe me, i did, during chem tut -.- and gp)
but i was quite energised from the start.
all because my bag didn't contain my phone when i went out of the house this morning.
rushed back home, collected the damn phone, rushed back out, bus 186 has just left, took cab, reached schl at 640 ._.
damn stupid i swear.
chem lect was nice :D i should be like this more, as long as i dont get too obsessed like my daughter rofl.
was darn attentive, all because she's pretty. (heh xD)
and are you sure im not a les? o.o
stupid vengyi influenced me rawr.
pe was pissifying.
i din get to play badminton, had to jump with madeline instead. so we jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and jumped, and im sure you get the point by now.
my legs kena spasm for awhile and i was pretty much close to collapsing on the floor.
):
had to do frigging AQ.
i pretty much hadn't written anything constructive for quite some time le. so i guess it's not too bad, really.
but still, reading the same paragraph over and over again was frustrating. couldn't focus, maybe im really too out of practice.
did my math next, and yea, im SO labelling - and - as my reliability from now on. they SHOULD be correct, and i can always count on them for a good answer sheet to..
.. check my answer la. i actually do my math de okay.
i trust them loads loads. hahaha. my class has great peeps.
dreamt about -,
and told shixian about it,
she was amused i guess. im just basically amused and puzzled.
weird dream nia. fall into drain. cant imagine xD
band was good,
the jiayou written on the board by sylvia was hilarious.
because the "oxygen" had a lone pair, and i was basically reminded of my qin ai de xD
(stupid vengyi and her influence)
and g's too tempting to ignore rofl.
(im becoming obsessed, am i not? zzz.)
too high, my clarinet is my darling again,
my scores are my inspiration,
and im gna "the climb" (yea.. refer to miley cyrus.)
not to mention the bunch of "that's not my name" keesiaos i have as my wonderful sectionmates.
i really cant get any luckier than this (:
(and who said blogging was bad?! it's a form of expression, just like overture and our SEA :D
tgt with the bliss i feel when im with the ones i love :D)
swing swing ;
10:00 PM;
10:00 PM;
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Got my MTV channel back, and I'm really happy.
Till I turned this particular channel on and my smile faded.
God, even though the songs are nice,
I don't appreciate most music videos.
I know the artists probably were instructed to.. hmm.. have things more sensual,
but I hardly find touching your legs and arms and body constantly throughout the song appealing.
It's rather distracting, really.
Not to mention that Mandy Moore definitely overdid it. Rofl.
Sigh, ohwell, I'm happy with 987fm, at least (:
**
Today's pretty insane.
I had a very hard time trying to stay awake,
even in gohgoh's class! ):
(yes, vengyi, you can slap me.)
Was blinking away.
Conclusion: Sleep deprivation is not good. Not good at all.
It makes you feel faint, the reason why I went straight to the SickBay together with Yuling.
After spending 2 hours there, I came to the conclusion that sleeping on a chair is not a good thing to do when you're feeling weak.
For one, a terrible stomachache came (and no, I don't think it's because I didn't eat much these days. :/)
My headache worsened,
And I was basically sniffing away because my flu seemed to come alive again.
Sigh,
I shall sleep early tonight (try.)
and try to survive for the whole of tomorrow (fridays are rather taxing on one's energy.)
**
Renewed passion,
renewed vigour,
I've gotta move it move it xD
**
And yes, constance darling,
I love you too :D
Till I turned this particular channel on and my smile faded.
God, even though the songs are nice,
I don't appreciate most music videos.
I know the artists probably were instructed to.. hmm.. have things more sensual,
but I hardly find touching your legs and arms and body constantly throughout the song appealing.
It's rather distracting, really.
Not to mention that Mandy Moore definitely overdid it. Rofl.
Sigh, ohwell, I'm happy with 987fm, at least (:
**
Today's pretty insane.
I had a very hard time trying to stay awake,
even in gohgoh's class! ):
(yes, vengyi, you can slap me.)
Was blinking away.
Conclusion: Sleep deprivation is not good. Not good at all.
It makes you feel faint, the reason why I went straight to the SickBay together with Yuling.
After spending 2 hours there, I came to the conclusion that sleeping on a chair is not a good thing to do when you're feeling weak.
For one, a terrible stomachache came (and no, I don't think it's because I didn't eat much these days. :/)
My headache worsened,
And I was basically sniffing away because my flu seemed to come alive again.
Sigh,
I shall sleep early tonight (try.)
and try to survive for the whole of tomorrow (fridays are rather taxing on one's energy.)
**
Renewed passion,
renewed vigour,
I've gotta move it move it xD
**
And yes, constance darling,
I love you too :D
swing swing ;
7:38 PM;
7:38 PM;
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
In denial: This is not my heart. Go break someone else’s.
<3
High (:
- GCH
- Milo
- Editorial
- Band (clarinets)
Ahhh what a sweet sweet Wednesday :D
<3
High (:
- GCH
- Milo
- Editorial
- Band (clarinets)
Ahhh what a sweet sweet Wednesday :D
swing swing ;
10:11 PM;
10:11 PM;
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Invite the red bull.
For, other than agony, there's only rage left.
Wanna transmit this newfound adrenaline induced energy somewhere else.
I never thought I could be violent,
because really, what could I do?
I'm just one of the weaker than average among my species.
Frustrated.
I want a..
.. Hidden escape.
**
New addiction to salt.
Dark?
The salt, maybe.
Me?
Not that much.
**
Silence is my way of saying I've given up.
On you,
On -,
And on myself.
(Whose side are you on, anyway?)
Giving in to sadness is so relieving.
For, other than agony, there's only rage left.
Wanna transmit this newfound adrenaline induced energy somewhere else.
I never thought I could be violent,
because really, what could I do?
I'm just one of the weaker than average among my species.
Frustrated.
I want a..
.. Hidden escape.
**
New addiction to salt.
Dark?
The salt, maybe.
Me?
Not that much.
**
Silence is my way of saying I've given up.
On you,
On -,
And on myself.
(Whose side are you on, anyway?)
Giving in to sadness is so relieving.
swing swing ;
1:08 PM;
1:08 PM;
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Routines of fondness,
Emoting emptiness.
**
"Deadlines do that to people."
):
**
My brain likes colours, patterns, nice combinations of splashes and blotches.
And even though my hand doesn't seem to agree with it,
The overall effect's not too bad (:
**
Everytime it happens,
I try so hard to swallow the pain.
So very hard.
Because I don't feel that much if it was any other unintentional impact.
But this,
this is intentional,
this is painful,
this stings like it will never go away.
I'm just wounded and whimpering,
Whimpering at the loss, the injustice,
Injustice of what's happening, the present,
The present being hurting, and sad,
Sad
because I do not find it in me to absorb anymore comfort to make everything better.
Pessimism may be the worst way to think,
but pessimism,
can't be helped,
but pessimism,
has to grow somewhere.
No matter where that place is.
The sting's gone by now.
The hurt's not.
**
I sing out loud,
Shout to the crowd,
Strut everywhere,
And talk about
The confidence I have,
The energy I possess.
But exist they do not,
But lying I am.
Truth comes falling,
Trapped underneath,
Listen to the sad melody,
Let it play,
And end this.
Emoting emptiness.
**
"Deadlines do that to people."
):
**
My brain likes colours, patterns, nice combinations of splashes and blotches.
And even though my hand doesn't seem to agree with it,
The overall effect's not too bad (:
**
Everytime it happens,
I try so hard to swallow the pain.
So very hard.
Because I don't feel that much if it was any other unintentional impact.
But this,
this is intentional,
this is painful,
this stings like it will never go away.
I'm just wounded and whimpering,
Whimpering at the loss, the injustice,
Injustice of what's happening, the present,
The present being hurting, and sad,
Sad
because I do not find it in me to absorb anymore comfort to make everything better.
Pessimism may be the worst way to think,
but pessimism,
can't be helped,
but pessimism,
has to grow somewhere.
No matter where that place is.
The sting's gone by now.
The hurt's not.
**
I sing out loud,
Shout to the crowd,
Strut everywhere,
And talk about
The confidence I have,
The energy I possess.
But exist they do not,
But lying I am.
Truth comes falling,
Trapped underneath,
Listen to the sad melody,
Let it play,
And end this.
swing swing ;
11:38 PM;
11:38 PM;
Monday, April 6, 2009
because haiwei's blog shows only two posts per page,
i shall post all the pics on her blog to mine so i can forever remember the fun/stupid pictures we took at breeks :D
see? this is so not my hand, despite the claim made by the true owner of this hand rofl.
I WHR GOT SO CHILDISH?! XD
ahaha i shall laugh at this evil kia who decides to make his new goal in life to suan me.
aww.. marshmallow nia.. so nice :D
EH HAIWEI I ALSO WANT EAT! ._.
that's like us la ;D
you know, my bad hair doesn't look too bad here xD
stupid clivia yap. who has the same surname as me.
the candle's pretty :D
another evil picture of clivia yap muahaha xD
ahh dammit! shoo!
okay so haiwei managed to get a candid shot of me ><
we completely didn't know why in the world rice has to be put tgt with the salt rofl. ><
*hears echoes from clivia: LOSER~*
the soup's wonderful i swear.
here's clivia's food.
"omg what the hell are those two sticks. *tastes* EH QUITE NICE LEH!*
rofl.
here's haiwei's and my food :D
the black pepper sauce is squeee! (:
ahh! im in heaven~
the beginning of several random shots of yours truly.
taken by scallop of course, the scallop named leonghaiwei.
okay this is just disturbing.
hmm? what's behind me?! o.o
just so you know, i do NOT appreciate this unglam pic. but the
marshmallow was nice i must admit :D
ahh! :D
so guess which is my fork? it's the most special one :D
sigh.. icecream~
okay. we are noobs who drops pieces of banana into the wonderful chocolate. the thing ended up damn sweet ><
yay okay so tht's it.
i think im gna post candid pics tht i have next time. xD
**
junior band jiayou! rofl :D
i think at least some people are putting in the effort, and from the way i heard you people played today, i think y'all have a chance leh!
so touched. (:
**
so im darn high. i have three qads le.
1.1 1.2 and 1.3
1.2 IS DARN CUTE ROFL.
her hair's imba today.
sigh. shall love everyone deep deep. bu kui shi wo de qin ai de! :D
**
okay time to chiong hmwk. otherwise fatigue come again, i'll die ):
i shall post all the pics on her blog to mine so i can forever remember the fun/stupid pictures we took at breeks :D
see? this is so not my hand, despite the claim made by the true owner of this hand rofl.
I WHR GOT SO CHILDISH?! XD
ahaha i shall laugh at this evil kia who decides to make his new goal in life to suan me.
aww.. marshmallow nia.. so nice :D
EH HAIWEI I ALSO WANT EAT! ._.
that's like us la ;D
you know, my bad hair doesn't look too bad here xD
stupid clivia yap. who has the same surname as me.
the candle's pretty :D
another evil picture of clivia yap muahaha xD
ahh dammit! shoo!
okay so haiwei managed to get a candid shot of me ><
we completely didn't know why in the world rice has to be put tgt with the salt rofl. ><
*hears echoes from clivia: LOSER~*
the soup's wonderful i swear.
here's clivia's food.
"omg what the hell are those two sticks. *tastes* EH QUITE NICE LEH!*
rofl.
here's haiwei's and my food :D
the black pepper sauce is squeee! (:
ahh! im in heaven~
the beginning of several random shots of yours truly.
taken by scallop of course, the scallop named leonghaiwei.
okay this is just disturbing.
hmm? what's behind me?! o.o
just so you know, i do NOT appreciate this unglam pic. but the
marshmallow was nice i must admit :D
ahh! :D
so guess which is my fork? it's the most special one :D
sigh.. icecream~
okay. we are noobs who drops pieces of banana into the wonderful chocolate. the thing ended up damn sweet ><
yay okay so tht's it.
i think im gna post candid pics tht i have next time. xD
**
junior band jiayou! rofl :D
i think at least some people are putting in the effort, and from the way i heard you people played today, i think y'all have a chance leh!
so touched. (:
**
so im darn high. i have three qads le.
1.1 1.2 and 1.3
1.2 IS DARN CUTE ROFL.
her hair's imba today.
sigh. shall love everyone deep deep. bu kui shi wo de qin ai de! :D
**
okay time to chiong hmwk. otherwise fatigue come again, i'll die ):
swing swing ;
7:32 PM;
7:32 PM;
Sunday, April 5, 2009
eeeeeeeeeee friday's breeks cafe episode was so unglam for me ><
hahah xD
"oh the fun we'll have~"
rofl.
haiwei's blog got alot of me! o.o
and i dont like one of the photos xD
ahwells.
Current media: I'm not missing you - Stacie Orrico
hahah xD
"oh the fun we'll have~"
rofl.
haiwei's blog got alot of me! o.o
and i dont like one of the photos xD
ahwells.
Current media: I'm not missing you - Stacie Orrico
swing swing ;
9:25 PM;
9:25 PM;
the sting as it pulls at your blood.
reality vs fantasy,
cliche but thr's got to be awareness,
tht they're two separate ideas,
separate, i tell you.
rofl.
it hurts, but it wakes you up.
and i meant the medicated oil on the back of my neck xD
"flower power here thinks she's got me beat"
<3
it's nice having floating ideals around.
gives life a dreamlike quality.
even though you're gna have to wake up sooner or later,
but at least, those moments would exist (:
so many plans <3
june holiday
hmwk escapade,
shopping spree, romance novel spree,
and running trips.
im happy with my life ;D
reality vs fantasy,
cliche but thr's got to be awareness,
tht they're two separate ideas,
separate, i tell you.
rofl.
it hurts, but it wakes you up.
and i meant the medicated oil on the back of my neck xD
"flower power here thinks she's got me beat"
<3
it's nice having floating ideals around.
gives life a dreamlike quality.
even though you're gna have to wake up sooner or later,
but at least, those moments would exist (:
so many plans <3
june holiday
hmwk escapade,
shopping spree, romance novel spree,
and running trips.
im happy with my life ;D
swing swing ;
11:48 AM;
11:48 AM;
Saturday, April 4, 2009
limjunyi rocks.
super super super rocks ^^
god. friends are great to have,
especially great ones.
thanks many to the power of infinity, (:
super super super rocks ^^
god. friends are great to have,
especially great ones.
thanks many to the power of infinity, (:
swing swing ;
11:06 PM;
11:06 PM;
a curled up ball of fear, rage and disappointment.
):
psychology is fascinating..
.. human relations are not. xD
.. and that's why psychology is fascinating! rofl.
writer's block: the moment you stare at your boring keyboard for inspiration.
(consie's and my work :D)
fatigued ):
head's throbbing,
im becoming a classic bytch,
and i want to break free.
(by doing things that others wont want to do.
so, im gna be independent. o.o)
i shall run when i have time. it's so stress relieving.
(just dont let anna chan see can le. i "knee pain". xD)
workload's getting easier to handle when you finally understand what's going on.
im gaining speed again (:
so, catching up,
hooray :D
(i just need the lessons to be a little less sleep-inducing xD)
):
psychology is fascinating..
.. human relations are not. xD
.. and that's why psychology is fascinating! rofl.
writer's block: the moment you stare at your boring keyboard for inspiration.
(consie's and my work :D)
fatigued ):
head's throbbing,
im becoming a classic bytch,
and i want to break free.
(by doing things that others wont want to do.
so, im gna be independent. o.o)
i shall run when i have time. it's so stress relieving.
(just dont let anna chan see can le. i "knee pain". xD)
workload's getting easier to handle when you finally understand what's going on.
im gaining speed again (:
so, catching up,
hooray :D
(i just need the lessons to be a little less sleep-inducing xD)
swing swing ;
8:51 PM;
8:51 PM;
Thursday, April 2, 2009
i dont have to tell nobody shit.
i dont own anybody.
get over it.
**
my jellybean dream,
my dreamlike moon stare.
zzz im still numb. although a little shaken now.
i think i have to get out of this soon.
-, i emphatise with you.
insensitivity gets on OUR nerves ;D
i dont own anybody.
get over it.
**
my jellybean dream,
my dreamlike moon stare.
zzz im still numb. although a little shaken now.
i think i have to get out of this soon.
-, i emphatise with you.
insensitivity gets on OUR nerves ;D
swing swing ;
11:39 PM;
11:39 PM;
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
i will never let that control slip again.
time to recognise lies from truths,
stop living life like you're at the drama theatre,
time to differentiate the mask from the real thing within.
i've realised the consequences,
and the parts of the mask i like, i'd keep.
the rest, i'd keep it locked up as much as possible.
because not only am i deceiving almost everyone,
im deceiving myself too.
time to recognise lies from truths,
stop living life like you're at the drama theatre,
time to differentiate the mask from the real thing within.
i've realised the consequences,
and the parts of the mask i like, i'd keep.
the rest, i'd keep it locked up as much as possible.
because not only am i deceiving almost everyone,
im deceiving myself too.
swing swing ;
9:31 PM;
9:31 PM;