♪ cant trust you, ;

Sunday, June 14, 2009

SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i can't believe it. my blog's shoo-ing me away.

ahwells. i'll stay away then.

be sure to calm it down for me!
i predict it will welcome me back after midyears. (:

swing swing ;
10:39 PM;

Saturday, June 13, 2009

spirals wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ahaha, havent been feeling like blogging recently.
don't rly knw wht to write anw.

i like katy perry's waking up in vegas.
pretty cool song.

ahhh damn, i suck at judging characters.
i was kinda hoping it wouldn't bring so much guilt,
but hahs.
i dno, for my own good, it'd be better if i just let things be.

have no idea when it started (or maybe i do),
but im getting pretty annoyed.

so im gna be a bitch now lols.

hmm,
songlist:
hush hush by pcd,
battlefield by jordin sparks,
:D

yay!:D

swing swing ;
5:41 PM;

Sunday, June 7, 2009

rainy day.

i wonder wht's gna come next,

hope snow..

or maybe not.

lol.

(monsters vs aliens was not bad, but it wasn't exactly the best disney film i've watched.)

swing swing ;
1:05 PM;

constricted throat.
strangled cries.
the stinging sensation in her nose.

her heart isn't tough enough to turn emotionless.
it still yearns to feel,
still yearns to touch.

but her body's determined.

slowly, she'll make herself so cold,
nthg could hurt her.

NTHG.

the rebel, the nature.
it's bound to cause problems,
but some can deal with it better than others.

and you're nthg but a reflection of all tht you spit at me.
hasn't failure not met you before?

deeming me useless,
a whore at the very best,
it's your strategy isn't it?
well it's not working.
instead, it's gna make me MORE of a whore,
it's gna make me MORE of a failure,
it's gna make me MORE of a nightmare,
it's gna make me MORE of a deranged teen, someone you don't recognise anym.

im your failure.
im your mistake.
im everything you hate.

and im giving up.
i can't save our relationship.
and im not gna try anym.

"don't hate her. she's your only one."
im not gna hate you,
im not tht heartless.
but if i feel distant,
try to remember im too useless,
an inferior species,
so much so tht i can't do anything anym.

i can't slam a revolving door,
i can't pluck down a single star from the sky,

im sensible (at least a little)
i can handle life (or so i hope)
so i would wish for you to back off,
and stop manipulating me.

only thn, can i break free.

swing swing ;
12:51 PM;

Saturday, June 6, 2009

i feel repulse whenever i look at others,
as i recognise the lack of control,
as i recognise just how weak we can be..

then i realise,
while im looking at them,
im looking at myself, too.

this will end soon.
and it may be tough,
but im gna enjoy it.

only that is when everything comes back into place (:

swing swing ;
2:16 PM;

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

im like any other person,
starving for smth to smile about,
not tht i wasn't happy in the first place,
just tht.. joy generally don't last too long, y'see.

so i chose to swoon,
and as usual,
noone else would be better as my partner in crime,
gohjiayi.

so we basically went excited over kim bum and his smile,
he exudes charm towards QIU TIAN (i don't care if it's the wrong name, she's a chiobu, and i like tht name.)
and he's pretty sweet,
(for the parts i've watched anw. heard from jiayi he found qiu tian a lil annoying at one point in time and tht made me angry.)
hee.

ahhh,
so looking ahead again like the mood spoiler i am,
i see nthg but heaps.

heaps of things to do,
heaps of mistakes if i don't stop lazing around.
i have past mistakes to atone for,
i wouldn't need more.

temptation is such an evil, evil thing.

ahwells.

swing swing ;
11:13 PM;

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

i'd have an apple every morning,
so tht i could keep awake.

it's more effective than caffeine!
:D

and it keeps the doctor away too..

swing swing ;
1:03 PM;