ohmigosh, like, it was darn cool luhhhhhhhhx :DDD
god, i've gone all bits of girly squeals and mush.
im sad though, because i was like, at this rate, i wouldn't even be allowed to THINK of the farewell party tomorrow. mrchoy's farewell party. like, you know, one of my favourite teachers in the world?
i shall send him a farewell sms, wish him well and all that.
sigh.
anyw, have been reading diary of a crush, series.
(duh, if you have been reading my posts, or are one of the people around me most of the time, you'd realise it by now.)
and i've finished book 2. book 2 is the one that had me started on the whole fanatic craze.
and i shall read book 3 and it shall be all wonderful with added bits of wonderful rofl im even writing like "edie" now.
wonder how you pronounce her name. eee-die? (simi thing die?!)
eddie? (which is like so wrong, cus she's a girl and.. -.-)
air-die. (rofl, another die.)
and god, i cant even pronounce dylan's name properly and i suspect it's gna make me go all depressed and hopeless because he's made it to my list of FAVOURITE IMAGINARY GUYS OF ALL TIME xD
(i've sorta kicked edward cullen out, will you people kill me? :/ but jasper hale is in! i think all that crap about fanfics and edward cullen hurting bella like shit is getting to me.)
hahaha, laughs.
hmm, moody artboys are so sweet and temperamental or whatever, and this jennie-mentality is screaming tht said jennie is darn attracted to those types of boy-shapes.
nono, i've not gone nutty, it's just quoted from the book. (everyone knows i tend to go overexcited and quote everything. from my various subjects and used in tacky situations. it's a laugh.)
ohya, and someone has a bitch radar switched on for the day.
i mean, indecisive much? just make up your bloody mind, won't ya?
and claiming tht i don't love you, (which, like,
yea.. at least, abit :/) is like having a darn argument about why drinking the water in your toilet bowl is not a good idea.
crazy bitch.
i'd love her more when she's all caring and gentle and whatnots,
and then i realise while she's constantly moaning tht she doesn't really know me much.
character wise, what i like, what i hate,
and tht just makes me sad.
and thr's those times where things will get thrown around,
and the sadness's gone and replaced by rage.
like, i dont think you coming here and wrecking my house is a very nice thing to do.
dysfunctional.
just like dylan's, i s'pose.
tht's cool.
i'd like to think im strong enough to handle anything.
and i'd start having this crazy stranglehold on my darn emotions and like, yay. cus, i'd turn all cold and strange and moody and emo and don't-you-dare-touch-me, and everyone i ever knew would stare at me with horrified or concerned expressions on their faces, because hell, am i possessed or what?!
and no, i still won't let anyone in, because the last time i did was pretty much about a decade ago and i've been young and naive and the last thing i should be doing is to drop my defences and start having everyone kill me again.
LOL, this is a seriously angsty kind of post, eh?
nono, don't mind me.
i'd feel all insecure about how my "rivals" were doing so much better, spend all my time thinking why their lives are pretty much perfect, and once stupid people looked at me funny or gave me snide remarks which were meant to be a joke, i'd turn like, "whatever" and walked off and then stay angsty at whoever for the rest of my existence.
i should get a diary, write in it every month or smth (i figured i probably cmi everyday) and lock it up in my heart.
cus angstiness should never work well in a public blog like this.