Nick Lane is (Y).
Although I have no idea why the hell I can't seem to find his pictures on the internet.

People, go watch Nothing In This World by Paris Hilton.
(Eh, I STILL don't like Paris, don't get the wrong idea. XD)

The guy aka Nick Lane is the cutest thing k.
Hahaha, his smile totally made me swoon.

And now, I shall go make new friends. They are friends of vectors, apparently. So I, as a friend of vectors, must make friends with them too.
They are not very pleasant though.

(Curse and swear at integration. Suckiest leh.)

Hah, I'm so gonna drool over a small boy. Nick Lane. Sheesh.
He's darn cute <3

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7:05 PM;

有一点不自在，
有一点太坦白，

Can't live like that anymore. Makes me feel like I'm not being myself.

**

Today was a great day. Other than the excessive sleeping during lectures/lessons (lol, azmi cures insomnia, olh sends me off to lalaland.)
Surprisingly I was pretty awake for Econs lecture. I mean, HAH. Even though I was busy scribbling down notes that didn't go into my head. So have to read it another time and digest it.

Came to school with a ._. face.
Many many many old songs were just stuck in my head, playing at the same time.
One of them was Forever and Always by Taylor Swift.
Then there was On the way down by Ryan Cabrera.
And then there was also We believe by Good Charlotte.
I swear it was damn noisy in my head. Fidgeting with my MP4 the entire way to Boonlay.

And then I saw Khoo's hair and I snorted.
Couldn't control it. I swear, it made my day that much brighter.
I was darn high afterwards, amusing Zoey as usual.

Shall seriously go cut my fringe or at least do something to it. It's getting irritating.
Plus I don't wanna look bald anymore (who wants to look bald anyw -.-)
Wondering if this time my hair can be nice and STAY that way.

Shall start training for napfa leh. I swear I'm damn sian diao when I heard 143cm for SBJ. Zzz. Last year I trained till 170cm. Guess I have to start all over again.

Okay goals.
2.4, shall try my best to hit below 14 minutes (: Give myself 2 min allowance.
Situp I shall practise as much as I can when I'm free. Shall aim for A.
Inclined pullup must A la ._.
Sit&Reach will train too. Heeheehee. *Sinister laughter* C!
Shuttlerun is rubbish. I fluctuate. That one at least B la.
SBJ, at least a pass .________.

You see, it's like wonderful until the end right! SBJ sucks.

Blah. Feels so restless as usual HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA oops.
Am going crazy again. (:

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6:10 PM;

Kinda sets me thinking,
what exactly PUSHES you?

Am I waiting for compliments, praise?
Am I waiting for success based on pure luck?
Am I waiting for an unfulfilled life?

I must say I was happy for PE on Wednesday.
If I could maintain that speed and keep those irritating stitches I keep getting this year, I can regain my footing again.
Miss running with Alvina. Seriously. To me, running was a major motivation for me to let off steam, and she was conveniently there so that I wasn't alone.

So sometimes I look back and I feel sad again.
I used to be afraid of how others may judge me, in fact, I still am,
but why am I not making a concerted effort to improve myself?

And there I go again, that damn stoic face.
I scare everyone. Even myself.

Emo ._.

Must pull myself together bahs.
Wonders if there's anyone out there willing to be a puppet master?
Pull my strings,

If I can't control myself well enough,
at least I am controlled and not hanging loosely on a stupid thread.

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11:40 PM;

Here we are, we're perfect strangers.
After all this time there's no more you and I,
But don't look for blame.
We've come so far to different places,
And now try to live a lie would be a crime,
It's better this way.

And we may not have tomorrow,
But there's always yesterday.

After the love has gone,
Only fools carry on.
We've been hurting for so long,
And we both know that it's wrong.
After the love has gone,
Then we just don't belong.
We both know that it's wrong,
After the love has gone.

It's clear this far, nothing to say now.
We sang alone and tried so hard to play the game,
It all ends the same.
Just words no more to fill these spaces,
When love is gone it's only wrong to try again,
I know it's a shame.

- After the love has gone, Steps

**

Been playing Steps songs again and again in my head. I must say I really have to go search for my Steps album somewhere hidden in my house leh. I miss their songs.
(I actually forgot the lyrics to It's the way you make me feel. That one is good.)

Have been resisting pretty well, I must say.
&I'm getting pretty OOC recently. What's up with thattt?!
Sigh nvm, as long as I know when to be quiet, shy, demure vs noisy, loud, wild.

Shall prepare myself for upcoming battle. Know that I only hang well with one other person, and not one whole gang. Pretty taxing.

Yay shall play Love's got a hold on my heart next.
Old favourites.. old favourites--

swing swing ;
5:46 PM;

I've never been good at balance and sustaining things.
Maybe I should really try to improve.

After all, I'm no good at anything. I am a pretty sad case.

Hope Haiwei had a great day today. It's good to be able to see someone else happy. 6A clique is starting to form, I like (:

Fml is the song of the day.
Butterfly's wings: Black.

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12:39 AM;

Dug this out from past posts.
"And then maybe I'd like to reach out, touch a pointed star, and watch my finger bleed."

Sometimes I'm amazed at what I write in my blog.
It's a variety of crap I write in here.

Hmm..

swing swing ;
9:50 PM;

I guess I'm still messing around with colours after all.
But for now it's changed from the colour of the sky, to the colour of a butterfly's wings.

Appropriate, right?

I guess when small things happen at the same time,
the impact would still be great.

Building up, building up.. And then the tension in the rope gets too much, and it snaps.

I feel betrayed, even though I shouldn't.
Just can't get rid of my possessive nature, can I?

You were so willing to help out with hers,
so why didn't you even respond to mine?
I know you would probably apologise later, (because if you don't, I'm gonna get really petty.)
but still.

I guess I really have this naive view of the world. But I don't want to be suspicious all the time.

It's human nature to be self-centred, but it's human nature to hate loneliness too.

Oh and by the way, I'm so bad.
I take for granted things that are right in front of me, and constantly get upset over how I couldn't reach the things far away.
It's mean. Really mean.

So anti-social. Like how things wouldn't work out well if I had to deal with more than one person?
I mean, I just can't deal. Would go quiet and just listen on with faked interest.

Ah the wings had turned blue. With a tinge of green. Beautiful, but the butterfly's flying away, trying its hardest not to return to where it had belonged for a long time.

MOVING ON TO HAPPIER THINGS,

I like my Maybe Not tee. Kinda fits, don't ya think?

Still wants that bag. Rawr.

Loves the ten white bands, seriously.

Bought boxed set of Darren Shan. Now for the next 6 books. Think it's such a waste of money buying the boxed set. It actually costs more than the individual books combined. Oh well, at least I have six books at one go now. It'd take ages to find all the 12 books.

This is awesome, I feel less empty now. (:

Byebye world, xoxo

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9:27 PM;

Don't make me blush,

Reignited flames. Eh, lol. Jennie, focus ar.
*determined look on face*

**

I feel like I've accomplished so much today.
The whole day's been filled with working, sleeping and working.

The school library's darn cold. Lol. But I finished pretty much! So I'm happy.
(Even grabbed Huiyuan from her sectionals and started dancing because she's lending me her model answers for the two cursed bio essays. Like, how great is that?! :D)

I slept 40 minutes away. Just plopped down after GP on my table (thank god I didn't drool), and snored away like I haven't a hell lot of work to do.
And then Mr Chua was still as nice as ever. You know, I really think I should start hionging and spamming econs essays for him to mark just to show him that I'm serious and his niceness is worth it.

Pudding milk tea is the best. I swear.

Onii-chan is the best too. Traffic jams suck, and I hope I didn't waste too much of your time by practically forcing you to drive me home :/
Next time MUST come up eat pizza, k! (:

**

Flustered. I'm guessing this is the on part of our on-off?

Again.

I should seriously get rid of this radar soon. Radar for on-offs.

It's pissing me off. Lol.

**

Nobody wants to be lonely,
Nobody wants to cry.
My body's longing to hold you,
So bad it hurts inside.
Time is precious and it's slipping away,
And I've been waiting for you all of my life.
- Nobody Wants To Be Lonely by Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera

swing swing ;
9:38 PM;

swing swing ;
12:15 AM;

Went to see a doctor today. He's darn cute hahaha. He shall be my new inspiration for now. (I think I'm sick @.@)

swing swing ;
8:28 PM;